Your Bedtime Story

2011

2011-02-12T15:31:00.004+07:00

you know, i've gotta say reading your own old blog posts is really fun. it's like you're traveling to the past and be reminded of all the things you did you don't even remember until you click the links to your old blog's archives. i used to have so many things to say, to write about here. but then i was a prisoner of the digital world, everyone was using tumblr and i thought it'd be cool to move there. but my tumblr lasted for like a month or so, i haven't blogged again ever since. i've had this blog since 2008, i've had mostly everything written from A to Z here. so yeah, i think i'm gonna re-open this blog and i hope i'll be posting new posts frequently.

have a great weekend ya'll :-)

p.s.: i'm gonna change the background picture sooner or later. it's just so.... high school hehe.

xoxo

Goodbye, Potatoes

2009-12-14T22:09:00.003+07:00

I'm... gonna have to betray blogspot cause I've made a tumblr.

Visit my blog okay that'd be here -> click

Tumblr is so cool I'm gonna have to kiss blogspot a goodbye. I'm sorry.

See ya'll in tumblr okay.

xoxo

Best Week

2009-12-05T17:39:00.002+07:00

It's funny how this week, which is supposed to be a stressing week, becomes one of my greatest weeks. I've been spending a lot of time with my schoolmate, either by chilling at random places or even chilling at me place watching dvds or making silly videos :) Yknow, turns out UAS isn't so bad afterall. Leaving school early is what's awesome.

Life is about being happy. All you need is to be with people who make you laugh as hard as you can and make you forget that you actually have a pile of problem waiting ahead of you.

Throw away all the drama and have fun peeps :)

xoxo

Halimun ♡♡

2009-11-05T15:32:00.003+07:00

The answer for my previous post would be: move on and leave everything behind :-)

In which has already been done. I've moved on, I've gotten over him for good. Nothing to regret anymore. Truth be told, calling it off felt so good. No longer gloomy days and no more me complaining. Goodbye then, 359. Isn't it a lot better now that we're over? :)

So, I got home yesterday from my 3-days school trip to Halimun in Sukabumi. It was really awesome, I had a terrific time with my classmates there. I never thought it'd be that fun. Frankly, I never wanted to come in the first place, knowing that we'll be exploring the forest and living in the village. But it wasn't as I imagined. The houses were okay, the house my class stayed at was very fine, dan pas ke hutan? Damn it was one hell of an experience :)

Might not think of doing it for the second time, but I'd love to have that kind of trip with my class again. It's kinda cool yknow, the fact that kita naik truk buat sapi to get to Halimun. The fresh air and the wind's breeze. And also the buses didn't have air conditioner. Could you imagine how hot that would be? Haha but I enjoyed it very well. Membumi for the whole 3 days :-)

Pictures coming soon!

xoxo

You thought you've lost the feeling...

2009-10-30T04:52:00.001+07:00

... turns out you haven't.

so now what?

The Guy with the First Letter A for Annoying

2009-10-22T21:25:00.004+07:00

In my life, I've never hated a person as much. Well, maybe I have, but I never directly showed it. It's because either I didn't get the chance to or I heard bad things about those people, therefore I started disliking them. Probably a couple of them who only pissed me off and got me mad. But the hate wouldn't linger too long.

In my life, I don't think I've ever had enemies. But there should be people who talk about me behind my back, or perhaps hate or dislike me for I-don't-know-what reason. Cause I do talk about people and it's in every person's nature. Talking about other people's pluses and minuses is inevitable, like it comes in a pack with every single one of you.

Alright, enough with the introduction crap. The point is there is this guy who goes to the same school with me, and unfortunately happens to be a classmate of mine in my new school. Thought he was quiet and nice, but as time shortly went by, the first couple weeks I got into 68 he had shown his obnoxious true color. Which, in fact, made the hatred last forever.

I've never dislike a person this much. He's just a true annoying pain in the ass. And if he ever happens to transfer to another school, I seriously am gonna throw a party. When he didn't come to school, it was like really really peaceful. I really wish one day he realizes that he's got a big mouth and need to shut up cause he's damn irritating. He has to understand that he's got awful demeanor and in desperate need of something to wake him up. But if he's finally awaken, the only thing that's gonna disappear is the loathing. I won't befriend with him, cause everything I see from him is barely positive.

I bet he doesn't like me too, cause I've tackled him twice. Oh, have I mentioned that he likes to take other people's stuffs (read: stationaries, text books), claims them as his, and when confronted he'd be like, "Oh, I don't know." "Why is it always me?" and other shits. One time Peira was looking for books in our locker and found my chemistry text book in his locker. The one I've been looking for since the beginning of grade 12. So I confronted him, with the whole class listening, and gave him a hella a lecture. He needs to go to the rehab perhaps. Klepto.

Enough said. Btw, just to let ya'll know, I'm writing a post about him not because I care about him or whatsoever. Hell to the fckn no. I just want to let the world know that I truly detest him and a bit of proof that I don't mouth when I say he's a pain in the ass.

no such thing as xoxo for this post

Piccies and Love

2009-10-11T19:16:00.006+07:00

my best girls :-)

those who made the party happen ;-)

my dearest cimsey ♥ (and adam?)

i had the crown all to myself that night. the best october the 10th so far :-)

xoxo

Can you believe it? I'm 17

2009-10-11T09:35:00.004+07:00

Being a birthday girl for one whole day is just amazing :-) held a birthday party at my house yesterday and it was a blast. Though it's kinda hard to merge binusian and my 68 friends haha. I just hope all you guys had a good time.

To reuben :

I'm sorry, I really am sorry. I never thought it'd make you feel that way. I'm sorry I couldn't stay by your side the whole time last night. I wanted to, I really really did. But the situation's not perfect enough. But if I could rewind to last night, I would stay by your side. I really would :( I'm so sorry. Thanks for your surprise visit to my house at midnight, on my birthday. One of those things that made my 17th birthday.

xoxo

Just Little Changes

2009-09-27T21:58:00.004+07:00

MY GAWD

This blog has been ditched for a month or so. It's either I didn't have the time to write or just plain laziness. So, a lot of thing has happened while this blog is not taken care of. And school's about to start in 3 days. I really really want to go back to the first day of Lebaran break. I do not want school please please?

I happened to read the previous posts and was like, "Whoa, my love life sucked this bad?". Haha, it was full of drama, disappointment, remorse, etc. Thought about calling things off a few times, but seemed to fail cause I got lured by his sweet talks. And then out of nowhere a few days ago, or perhaps a week ago, he became nice! Like, he changed for good. It wasn't because I wanted to break things off or I asked him to. We just talked and talked and talked, and suddenly he just couldn't stop talking to me. He became really responsive and really sweet. Late night phone call almost every night. This relationship all of a sudden becomes worthy.

"Lu nyantet gua y?"

It's like I put him under a spell, like he finally noticed my charm :p

I love it when he makes me smile.

I love it when he calls.

I love being needed.

Fingers crossed, let the magic lasts long.

:-)

xoxo

2009-08-23T21:04:00.002+07:00

Stories you tell, as we lay in bed, all afternoon

It's a part of the list of things that I miss

What You Do - Chrisette Michele

2009-08-02T21:56:00.004+07:00

Say it with your actions

Saying those words to me

Doesn't mean a thing to me

I don't wanna hear them

Baby you can keep those three

You might as well not even speak

Many different times before

You were almost out the door

Then you'd say it

And I'd forget everything

Well I'm sorry to report

That's not working anymore

Now I need to see if that's really what you mean

No more "I'm sorry"

"I love you"

I need proof

Baby boy it's all in what you do

No more I love you

If it's true baby boy

It's all in what you do

Say it with your actions

Say it in the way you touch

And the things that you do for us

I don't wanna be mean

But when it comes to this love

Saying it ain't enough

It's in what you

It's it's in what you do

It's in what you

It's all in what you do

In a way, this song is speaking for me.

This song is totally dedicated to my going on 3 months boyfriend.

This is totally true. I'd rather hear the words I love you, I am sorry, etc. etc. from your actions not from your mouth, honey : )

I'd really love to see you keep the promise you made for me yesterday.

Everything is totally shown in what you do...

xoxo

I WANT OUT!!!

2009-07-25T01:35:00.003+07:00

Once again I am missing out another great night. Oh well. I didn't even have the guts to ask permission to my Dad. He'd beat me up verbally and I'd be crying my ass off, so better keep my mouth shut. Still up, really bored. Well at least watching TV, bbm-ing, playing online pool with Andrew, and listening to good tunes had kept me companied.

"So girl, tell me is there something I can do to see you

Maybe you can make

a lil time i'll meet u

I just gotta tell u what I'm goin' through
Gotta let u know I still love you
there's so many things I wanna share with you
so much is there to make me miss you
for what its worth girl
I swear its true
gotta let u know
I STILL LOVE YOU!"
-Nelly

Aww the song's so sweet :)

xoxo

When You Thought You Were Always Right...

2009-07-23T15:41:00.008+07:00

"Let's rewind, rewind, put all of this behind and just rewind..."

;' )

... you have always been wrong.

xoxo

I'm Just Saying ; )

2009-07-23T15:12:00.002+07:00

A part of my life has been pretty hectic lately. In a past few days, or weeks perhaps, I've been very miserable and it's pretty much annoying. I've tried hard to get it out of my head but once it disappears, it always comes back every once in awhile. Seriously, I just can't stand that fact. I mean, as Filza once told me, this is supposed to be my page now. I don't want any previous pages butting into it. Not that it's entirely wrong, it's just that I wanna be understood. My feelings want to be understood. I wanna be fully respected. You may think of this as nothing. But if indeed it was just nothing, why does it hurt?

I'm so lost here. I don't know what else to do. I don't know what to decide. Cause I'm not good in making decisions. I'm tryna be strong in facing all this. I'm tryna be chill.

xoxo

Pretty Much Bored

2009-07-19T10:00:00.003+07:00

I changed my blog layout yesterday to something simple but Ichel said she likes the previous one better (the one used now). Because she adores my banner, the one with my pictures on :D haha joking. Katanya lebih rame and more lively. So yeah, I changed it back again hehe. The attempt failed.

So, because of the bombing thing I spent my Saturday with Ichell helping her making *ehm* and went to PURI MALL. Gosh I haven't stepped my feet on that mall for years. Well I mean I exaggerated that one, but I don't even remember when was the last time I go there. But for me who lives in the east coast (yeaah) Mal Kelapa Gading is way cooler! Hahaha.

Anywaay, I haven't changed as grade 12 started. I am still a TOP CLASS procrastinator!!! I haven't started my biology project which supposed to be done earlier on Wednesday. The project takes 5 days and I am so going to hell. So reckon it's Sunday and I have nothing particular to do. Mom and Dad aren't home so no Malls (well even if they're home we wouldn't go there). I badly want pizza. One with melting cheesy topping and burning hot. I am drooling.

xoxo

May You All Rest in Peace

2009-07-18T09:40:00.000+07:00

School has started, bummer. First day was alright, can't believe a year has already passed. I'm no longer a newcomer, I already feel like I'm a part of them. Though the thoughts of the good life I had in Binus still wanders around in my mind. I sometimes wish of staying in that school and spend my high school year til I graduate there. But yeah, no turning backs and I've met good people I'm pretty much happy being friends with. My future now relies with my progresses in 68, wish me a very good luck.

So it's weekend already. It's so quick, isn't it? I mean I just got myself dressed in those silly uniforms, waking up early in the morning, and now I'm freed already? But all the bombings that happened yesterday still terrifies me. Now most of my friends won't be allowed to go to the malls etc, etc. We had to cancel our ps time yesterday because most had to go home and we were all simply afraid. I don't think my parents there in Mekkah or somewhere know about this bombing thing. Cause if they knew, they would've texted me already telling me not to go anywhere until the situation's settled.

Why is some people are crazy enough to bomb places? What do they simply get? Satisfactions? Fuck those. They take life of the innocents, they put people in grief, destroying the surroundings, and things that are not even close with safety. You bombers just go to hell. You deserve it much much better.

xoxo

What's A Life?

2009-07-10T17:15:00.002+07:00

Kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel!!! :(

I'm supposed to be at sency or ps or somewhere and then go meet up with the others to go to Nabila's. But as always my dad's being an ass and he didn't let me stay over at Nabila's so yeah I have to stay home tonight. DOING BASICALLY NOTHING. Nothing more than playing the sims, maybe a dvd marathon, facebook (?), and other stupid stuffs you do when you simply have nothing to do at home. Usually I'll be on the phone with Ichell but since she's out tonight, goodbye phone calls.

I mean seriously, my stupid school starts on Monday. Like next Monday, 13th of July! Duuude I only have 2 weeks of holiday. How more annoying could it be? And my parents are leaving for a week or something to do Umroh and HELLOOOOO?? I already have school? While my friends I always hang out with are still having their holiday? I've missed out a lot. I haven't even gotten the chance to catch up with an old friend who's about to leave Jakarta again. How great my life sounds.

I want a cool Dad. One who doesn't set 6 pm for a curfew, one who supports everything I am doing, one who doesn't get mad that easily, one who's cool enough I'd love very much, and one who isn't too over protective. I mean I'm still living a life as a teenager. I have a lot of wants, I have friends I have fun being with, I wanna break free. I mean my Dad doesn't want me to go out till night, but what does he expect? Me studying? Or what? Dude, staying home for me is so remotely close to doing productive and fun things. Well at least I live in a modern era where I can still be able to communicate with others by internet. But stiiilll, during weekends I'm not gonna study okay. I'm not the type of person who studies 24/7 so it's useless to lock me home and sabotaging my weekend.

Family day is on Sunday, so Saturday's supposed to be my day.

I want to go tonight. Badly :(

xoxo

Morning

2009-07-06T09:45:00.003+07:00

Got home from Bali last Wednesday. It was amazing, had a really really great time. Too bad we only stayed there for 4 days, I want a week! I went to Dufan a day after I got home from Bali. Man it was tiring, I slept rather early on the days I went home from Bali and Dufan. But the tiredness was nothing to the all the fun I had :)

But then weekend came and it was kinda rough. It was pretty much... rocky. Don't wanna discuss it here. I am myself again now. All cheered up and okay.

Now, helloooo Monday. Am staying home the whole day so that tomorrow I can go have dinner with Nabila and co. It's been awhile after my veeeeeeeeeery last dinner with CIMS. That's all I can remember, and that was on February. So sad ya? That's why I'm not gonna miss out tomorrow's! Too bad Reuben is in Singapore till Friday. At least his BBM works, we're not losing contact. I thought he'd be unreachable there for 5 days.

So yeah, please cross your fingers guys for me. So that my Dad will allow me out tomorrow!

xoxo

The Sims 3 Rowcking

2009-06-27T08:52:00.003+07:00

Dropping by to proudly and merrily say...... I'VE PLAYED THE SIMS 3!!! Yeaaaaahh. I've been waiting for it to come out since like, I don't know, a year ago probably? It's like a dream come true. Hahaha. Though kind of disappointed with its sims, I like The Sims 2's sims much better. The faces are weird and none of them are pretty. But you know, The Sims 3 is super keewwwll. You get to modify and color every thing you want, your hair, your tops, dresses, etc.

Have a great weekend : )

xoxo

3 First Days of the Week

2009-06-24T22:34:00.005+07:00

Monday was really awesome, had a wonderful time with my classmate girlfriends. Went for a totally-worth-the-scream-and-energy-spent karaoke and had a totally gratifying meal after. We took loads of piccies and they are just beautiful. Monday was tiring and yet fun at the very same time. A huge everlasting love for Nita and Risa who were kind enough to treat us that much food. Happy birthday, loves : )

T-Rex @ Grand Indo

Us in Poke Sushi before the feast was served

My girls : )

Tuesday, had to stay home. Figured I wouldn't be allowed to go anywhere because of the Saturday misunderstood incident and also the fact that I just went out on Monday. So I rotted the whole day. Digested a lot food, zero for effort in exercising, joined my sister watching FRIENDS, and other unimportant stuffs. Thinking I'd be allowed to go out on Wednesday, which had been planned earlier since Saturday with Andrew.

Wednesday, it was a total disappointment in the morning. I took a shower, I changed my outfit, I had my hair half-done (like literally, the left part of my hair was untouched), and then tralala... bad news. Not allowed to go anywhere since there were no cars and the other driver had to pick my Dad up at the airport at around 6. Arguments would not be useful so me and my sister decided, unwillingly, to just stay home. Until my bro and his girlfriend came to the rescue.

Today was the premiere of the movie Transformers 2 in Jakarta and we all wanted to watch it sooo bad. So after my bro and his girlfriend were done with school they went home and picked me and my sis up to go watch Transformers 2 :D Yeaaaah, goodbye boredom. It was so great that we actually got the tickets at Blitz. The movie was superb, 2 thumbs up. Movie of the year banget. Worth watching, and worth the sweat of having to hop from one cinema to the other just to find 4 available seats. Those who haven't watched it... grab your car keys and head to the nearest cinema and get yourselves a ticket to the coolest movie you'll ever watch!

xoxo

Long Time No See

2009-06-22T09:27:00.005+07:00

Lacking of updates, right? Haha, I wouldn't call myself busy during those times though. Just got attacked by one of my incurable diseases: laziness.

Today I claimed myself on holiday, I didn't wanna go to school. I set the alarm at 7, thinking that I might go to school at around 8, but suddenly I just didn't feel like going. Thank God I didn't though, probably the rest of the class didn't come too. Cumon, AS level exam is done, end of semester exam is too, so why bother going to school for a remedial? It'll probably be pointless anyway.

Dinda and Rabia are gonna be here in around an hour or so. Risa is going to treat us umm... I don't really know what to call this, cause we'll be having our meal at around 4 o'clock in the afternoon. Lunch or dinner? Or pre-dinner maybe? Haha. But we'll be screaming our hearts out before having our pre-dinner at poke sushi! We're going out for a karaoke! Yippeeee, the whole class baby... maybe. We'll be taking ahella a pictcha!

And on Wedny I'll be out again, if allowed, with cimsey and a couple of others. This week must be great. Then on Sunday... HELLOLUYA BALI! =)

Something I made, not much of an effort, not so important either - just wanna share this to da world: brand new awzum wallpaper.

Bored of seeing only one big picture displayed on my desktop, so, iseng attaching them into one.

Not really decorated, but still...

Aren't I the sweetest? ; )

xoxo

"***cil"

2009-06-17T23:00:00.004+07:00

[click on the pic for a closer look]

Aww thank you for making this matrix effect drawing (how Ichell calls it), Ben :)

He said it took him around weeks to finish this up. Perfect effort.

You must be dead bored and yet you had me on your mind ;-p

How lovely...

xoxo

True, Not False

2009-06-15T21:18:00.004+07:00

You're never wrong and I'm never right

and

You win all the rounds in every fight

Asia Cruise

CIMS Re-united

2009-06-13T20:32:00.003+07:00

One of my girl's turning 17 today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YELLA!!! I know you had a good one since you spent it with cimsey :) sorry I kinda ruined it by forcing you to watch Drag Me To Hell. It's just that since we came in a pack, watching those kinds of movies would be better hehe. Let's just watch Star Trek in DVD ;p

Thanks for the treat too, Yell!

I, myself, had a really good time too today. Maan I wish I could've stayed longer. The whole CIMS were there, except Chris who had to leave this morning to Hong Kong. Today was rocking and I totally love it :)

That was like written around more than half an hour ago. I just finished reading gogirl! magazine June edition and was bewildered by its horoscope page. Most of the descriptions are downright accurate! For Libra, the "Hari Baik" and "Warna" are Saturday and pink respectively. Omg that is like totally true since today is Saturday and I was wearing a pink top hahaha and I totally had an awesome time. Call me nora, but this has happened more than once so yeah... go Gogirl!'s horoscope page!

xoxo

summertime tag abeezy

2009-06-03T17:14:00.000+07:00

I'm at blitz
With no kids
In the lounge checkin them vids
Holler at my girl named sissy
I'm enjoying the lounge drinkin' ice tea
Yella, Michi and Ray right beside me
I'm wearin green I'm so sexy
Tell reuben to come and get me
Just kidding,just kidding
I'm ordering my pudding
I'm lovin the padded seatings
-Abeezy exclusive

Noraaaaa :p

2009-06-02T20:36:00.005+07:00

I'm skyping with Ichell and chatting with Andrew right na na na.

Our conversation went a little weird tho. Andrew was in grieve because he wanted to watch PCD badly but he couldn't since he had to study math for tomorrow :p

So here goes his randomness for missing PCD's concert.

Naida ♥ says: (8:33:37 PM)

HAHAHAH

Naida ♥ says: (8:33:41 PM)

DREW PUHLEEASE

Andrew says: (8:34:10 PM)

you done with school already ?

Naida ♥ says: (8:34:15 PM)

Naida ♥ says: (8:34:19 PM)

NOT UNTIL THE END OF JUNE

Andrew says: (8:35:21 PM)

HAHAHAHAH

Andrew says: (8:35:31 PM)

UHHHH

Naida ♥ says: (8:35:36 PM)

T.T

Naida ♥ says: (8:35:38 PM)

T__T

Andrew says: (8:35:43 PM)

DONT CHA WISH THAT YOU ARE STILL IN BINUS

Naida ♥ says: (8:35:48 PM)

YES

Naida ♥ says: (8:35:50 PM)

TOTALLYYYYY

Andrew says: (8:35:51 PM)

DONT CHAAA

Andrew says: (8:35:51 PM)

AAAA DONT CHA

Naida ♥ says: (8:35:54 PM)

BADLY BADLY

Andrew says: (8:35:59 PM)

MR PETER (MR PETER)

There's plenty. But you won't be able to handle it :p

xoxo

I Just Can't Let Go of the Past, Sorry

2009-06-02T19:10:00.008+07:00

I typed bloggy.com instead of blogger.com just a while ago. How stupid, what did I have in mind? -___-

So about less than half an hour ago I talked with iZong on skype and she showed me this collage that she's gonna display on her birthday dinner. There was this photo of CIMS during our last Friday wearing free dress, when we all coincidentally wore white tops, and happened to be a day after Filza's 16th birthday. It was very sensational, especially the part where she thought the cake that we quietly bought for her, was for Ms. Vivi. She totally had no idea when the cake was brought into the class, she sung the happy birthday song as well! Not knowing that she was singing for herself! Lol. That was quiet a moment :)

There, the clueless birthday girl blowing da candles haha. Love ya!

You guys don't know how I miss this class very much. I had great times, great laughs, and neither one of em can get away from my mind, though we weren't this close back in the first semester. I'd really love to spend the rest of my high school year with these guys again. I don't care how boring it would be, to see the same changeless faces each and every day. Not to see them everyday makes my heart aches cause it makes me remember all those crazy days we used to have together inside and outside the class. Good life.

So sad. I don't get to see them as much as I did before :(

Super kewl classmates with our dearest Ms. Angai

CIMS in white!

♡♡♡

Superb! A phenomenal coincidence baby! Woo hoo :)

xoxo

Good Times Should Never Go Away

2009-05-27T15:47:00.010+07:00

B O R E D

Both pure math and statistics are finished! Though I don't really think I'm gonna nail those 2 papers. The grade A* is sooo off my radar. There's still bio paper 2 and practical and physics paper 1 left. This week's exam is all done so I'm free as a bird. Say goodbye to exams 'til next week :)

I can't wait for June 6th, by the way. Finally I'm going for a night out with my fellas. My Dad better allows me, or else ... I'll be pouting for the rest of my life. Hahahaha but seriously, he really has to allow me cause I'm not gonna miss Filza's birthday dinner. It's been awhile after my precious Saturday days and nights are taken away. I haven't had much fun ever since the 2nd of May, Ivana's birthday. I'm talking about weekends okay, my weekdays are still as fun as they usually are. So please Dad, be a darling and let your daughter here has all the fun she's supposed to have every Saturday night.

Things I currently miss awfully:

1. CIMS and our usual Friday/Saturday day-night out.

2. Fellas I used to hang out with.

3. Grade 10. BADLY BADLY BADLY! Everyone I'm so closed with were there. Every one of them. Grade 10 is worth every second.

4. Girl's day out and single's day out. Sushi Tei and movies. Totally.

5. Watch movies with my buddies. Haven't done that for quite a while, really. (I kinda miss middle school. A little bit tho)

I used to have so much fun :S

xoxo

Happy Birthday iZong

2009-05-21T22:04:00.005+07:00

It's 10:04, according to my desktop's clock. Which means in an hour and 56 more minutes my Filza is turning 17!!! And I don't think I can make it till the clock strikes 12, my eyes just can't take it. So I just gotta write it earlier, here. Karena kalo through MSN it means the greeting comes way too early. Filza probably reads this by tomorrow hhe.

So here it goes:

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY FILZAAAAA :):):) my iZong!

Best and best and best wishes for you

You know I ♥ you !

Hope you'll have a good one,

cause the age 17 comes only once in a lifetime :)"

So yeah, gtg. I'm off to bed cuddling my pillows :)

Nighty, night lovers.

xoxo

Reminiscing and Wishing

2009-05-18T20:49:00.008+07:00

I wanna go back to this particular time and place

Where there wasn't any adult intervention

Where we were sort of free to do anything we want there

Where we could jump from one room to another cause we felt like doing it

Where we could stay up 'til the morning and enjoy the beach's breezing wind

Where people we love and care about were there with us 24/7

Those days I spent in Bali are remarkable

3 days aren't enough

I wish I could go back in time and re-experience those 3 days wisely

xoxo

I Can Never Get Enough of Food ♥

2009-05-18T19:43:00.002+07:00

So... today was fun. Dila, Macil, Ari, and Luhung went to my place after school to slouch and have lunch. Frankly, I really can't have them coming over too frequent. Since every time they come over we always order delivery in an enormous quantity, and I'm not exaggerating. Here I'm not complaining about the finance, I'm not that cheap -__- , I'm talking about getting out of shape. Like for instance, today we had KFC for lunch. And we ordered a bucket of 9 fried chickens, when there were only 5 of us. Everyone was starving, we finished everything. I had colonel yakiniku alone for myself and 1 chicken. I ate them fast, as if I've never eaten for couple days.

Aaah, ever since my last holiday to Bali I've been eating like crazy again. I eat rice during lunch, eat much during dinner, and eat snacks at school. I've lost 2 kg and I think my weight's gaining again, you know. Saddy, saddy :( I want to get taller, not fatter. My period is about to come, I guess. Cause every time it's coming my appetite becomes realllly heuuge :-|

I'm kinda confused here, should I come to Binus on Wed or not? There's a drama performance held by the grade 9 and my sister asked me to come watch her. I don't think I'm gonna make it in time, though. I have AS level exam and it finishes at 2 something when the play's starting at 2.30. If I can't make it in time I can just visit Binus sih. I mean watching my sister performs would be a good excuse to go to Binus and meet up with some people :) No hard feelings, dek. Not that I don't wanna watch your play. I want to, cause I'm curious in which scene Poker Face is gonna be played. And I can actually see that she has put quite a lot of effort to it, I wanna see how it turns out. Cause I've been there, being Ms. Super Busy in a drama practice is super tiring and irritating. Kan it's only if I can't make it in time. Okay, okay? ;p

Soo I can't wait for Friday! Cause Friday means tomorrow is Saturday and Saturday is weekend and weekend is nothing but fun! Which eventually means I can't wait for fun, fun, and fun! :)

xoxo

A Thought Passing By

2009-05-17T21:38:00.007+07:00

A wise, narcissistic friend once said...

"Of course, I want my girl to feel that she's special."

How I wish my boyfriend would say that and do the same thing too. Hehe :)

xoxo

Untitled

2009-05-14T13:04:00.002+07:00

Facebook is under maintenance, or is it only my account? Idk deh, yang pasti I'm dead bored. All I'm doing right now is waiting for a bbm reply, checking twitter, randomly clicking on songs I please to hear on iTunes, and blogging. I feel like playing dress up you know, trying on clothes. It's suber fun. But not now, probably later :p

Today there's no tutor, no exam, which means school's off. I thought I'd be out with mom shopping, but turned out she has her own plans, out with her friends. So here I am home, stranded.

Anyway, yesterday Yella showed me a video of Kris Allen singin Heartless on American Idol. Because of that I'm starting to like the Kanye West's version again. Hahaha me lovin the lyrics, keren loh. I really do need to do something a little more productive than what I've been doing for the past few hours after waking up. *sigh*

xoxo

Omige Desperado Abis -___-

2009-05-13T00:37:00.004+07:00

Math test today at 10. Can't sleep, could this be insomnia?

Lately, something has made me realize how much of a jealous person I am. And this trait needs to be gone cause it certainly does not feel good, at all. Jealousy sucks, you know. It makes you feel so insecure like all the time, when you shouldn't be. It makes you think of foolish stuffs, you don't even know whether they're the truth or not, when you shouldn't be thinking of it. Jealousy is all about insecurity. And... I loathe myself every time I feel insecure about something. It makes me fidget all the time. Painless, but nerve-wracking.

But after I gave it a re-thought, this is not jealousy. This is about me feeling a little less special...

Maybe that's the reason why my thoughts were wandering around though my eyes were closed. Got too much to think of, and none of them are close to important. At this very moment, I totally need my booty call pals...

xoxo

p.s: this is something I wrote early at midnight. I had trouble sleeping so there goes all those craps ;p

Whoopie :p

2009-05-12T10:01:00.005+07:00

Pure Math AS level. TOMORROW !!!

Last night I was supposed to be home doing questions from the past paper I haven't done and yet I was out to Grand Indo to help my sis find her drama costume. She eventually found it and I eventually did not take a peek on any of those papers when arrived home. Wish me luck, peeps. At least for math I have a higher optimism compared to biology and physics.

Can't wait till AS level exam is all done. Hanamasa and Bali! Whooopie, me lovey lovey :)

Holiday is never taken off from my things-I-want-the-most list!

xoxo

Quote of The Day

2009-05-11T00:03:00.006+07:00

" If I was down would you say things to make me smile? " :)

~ 50 Cent ~

Nothing beats 21 Questions ♥

xoxo

It's Almost 3 In The Morning o.0

2009-05-10T02:24:00.004+07:00

Lessons learned from today (well technically yesterday):

1. You can't trust anyone.

2. Lying will never keep your heart from not beating so fast (all the time).

3. You just gotta ignore the envious insignificant.

Saturday was great. I went to a friend's house and since my curfew is rather tight I had to go home at 5 -___- but instead I stayed a little late so I arrived home at 6. Then I went out for a dinner with my bro, his girl, and my sis to Kemang. It's been a long time. My schedule is always filled most Saturdays so the chance of me spending time with them is very rare. So it's good you know, to finally attend a umm... siblings day out? Hahaha :p

I don't know whether that is supposed to be a coincidence or not. If it is, it's just too creepy. Cause girl, let me just put it this way... it's way too obvious ;p

Sorry but I can't help it. I may be wrong, but people make assumptions and assume that their presumptions are right, no? Just can't leave this one unnoticed cause I feel rather disturbed.

And again, sorry for being so frank and sotoy-ly assured if you happen to realize :)

xoxo

We Make Mistakes

2009-05-07T11:51:00.001+07:00

Yesterday my dad went home after his 5 days absence to Bali. During dinner he was furious, he yelled at me because I went home really really late last Saturday. He banned me from going to Binus every Friday and as well as going out every Saturday, if I'm going with Binus friends. He suspected me having a boyfriend and he thought it's distracting my study and that I shouldn't date. But Dad, I'm 16 and you care way too much. I do need attention but this is beyond my expectation.

And I totally hating the fact that my drivers are nothing but two blabber mouths. They really can't co-operate with me, why can't they just not spill every little details to my parents? I need privacy, guys, so stfu won't you? My father disapproves me dating, but I don't care. As long as my education isn't failing, I won't listen to him just yet. Though as far as I'm concerned my studies have been distracted because of some reasons, but I for sure am going to keep it up.

Which eventually means... I cannott go out this Saturday :(( I've made a plan with Karen and I have to cancel it. Arrgh :(

And frankly, I really really want to see you cause I miss you like a lot even though we argue way too often ♥

xoxo

Naughty, Naughty :p

2009-05-06T13:51:00.002+07:00

Omige, physics is killing moi. I'm bored to the core, I want to sleep now like right away. I wanna go home, upload today's photos, and take a decent nap. Then I'll do some math questions at night. This one's for real cause I have a lot of catching up to do. Exam is exactly next week. And I have to get used to doing pure maths questions yang super duper ribet.

But I'm so sure I'm so gonna fail physics :(

I'm like in class right now, ngebahas soal-soal physics from the past paper. But I blog, instead of listening. Naughty, naughty. Sorry, Mr. Hasan. This is what's so great about being a blackberry-a-holic HAHA.

I really can't wait for the upcoming holiday. I really wanna get away from all the lessons and studies and get some slacks ;)

xoxo

I'm Just Too Random

2009-05-06T07:41:00.002+07:00

Just a little something for my dearest.

Apparently I feel like posting something

xoxo

Truth Hurts

2009-05-05T17:19:00.001+07:00

Just wanna do a quick little whine.

Why can't I get any taller?

xoxo

359 ♥

2009-05-05T15:52:00.005+07:00

I had to remove my previous post called 'confidential' I wrote a week ago because the post somehow shows my fragility and I don't like it :p I feel stupid to ever wrote that post. Well it already happened and it's a relief that it wasn't really happening.

Another week has come by, another day of school. And next week I'll be having my AS level exam starting with math, which is hard. I'm taking it really easy when I'm supposed to study a lot more, a lot harder. You can see like right now instead of studying doing past papers' questions, I'm blogging. Which is supposed to be a minority and can be done in any other spare time. Haha, I'm just supah leyyzeehhh and I know that for sure. But wish me luck, will ya?

Sooo my patience finally paid off. I'm done waiting and finally got a status. Though I still feel that being single kicks asses and is so much more relaxing. I'm still used to being single. But in the other hand, who am I to judge? Let's just see where this is gonna lead up to :)

xoxo

dude, i really really wanna see you. asap ;(

2009-04-29T20:34:00.004+07:00

xoxo

Mr. Never-Wrong

2009-04-28T21:31:00.005+07:00

Naida ♥ says: (9:30:23 PM)

itu aja tuh *piip* (censored for a certain reason :p)

Naida ♥ says: (9:30:26 PM)

udah ga ada polos2nya

Naida ♥ says: (9:30:27 PM)

Jonathan says: (9:30:29 PM)

haha lucu

Jonathan says: (9:30:37 PM)

mukanya jg ga ada bgs2nya

Hahaha jo, jo jahat banget.

But that is like...... the truth.

You know I just got back to school and got the news that school's off on Thursday for grade 11 regarding grade 12's practical exam. And I'm like yeah cool, just exactly what I need :p But school's fun tho. Belajarnya yang males.

Weekend's coming soon and I totally can't wait for it :)

xoxo

P.S: You're a pain in the ass I just can't get enough of.

I'm hopelessly pathetic, I know.

School??? School??? School???

2009-04-26T18:22:00.004+07:00

Oh shoot, school's starting tomorrow :( huuuuh a week off is not enough!!! I want more of it. I can't wait for next weekend. Ivy's birthday!!! Yeah finally a birthday party :D

Oh yeah today is Dhanes' birthday. Happy birthday, Nes :)

So I finally found the dress to wear to Ivy's, which means I have to keep my food portion to as minimum as possible. My legs and my arms must lose their fats so that I'll look stunning in that dress. Yeah (you wish, Nai :p). Hahaha yea at least not as fat as I am right now. Let's just see, though. One week, one week. Oops, I mean 5 days :p

xoxo

Kelapa Gading Sucks, Believe Me

2009-04-26T12:20:00.001+07:00

I keep telling myself "I don't care, I don't give a damn. Cause honey I know nothing's gonna happen." But I can't deny the fact that I care so much and have been thinking about it lately. When as a matter of fact it's not supposed to be something annoying and one that gets on my nerves. I'm just hoping everything that I hear from that mouth is the truth. Cause I don't wanna go all melancholy and shit if things come out messy afterwards. It hurts you know, to have such a pessimistic mind. Especially when your thoughts are in the brink of realizing how real those negativities are.

Feels like I'm in a race but I've already won first place ...

- Keri Hilson

Haha you know what, don't bother. Just insignificant stuffs that had to leave from my head. Nyways, this is like my first time posting using my phone. Fyi, I am like in a super major boredom although I'm not home right now. Cuman I had to wait for my dad in disc tarra just messing around with my phone and really, it was pretty much sucks. Now I'm at food hall so I gotta go. Ciao bloggers :p

xoxo

Quote of the Day

2009-04-20T18:44:00.002+07:00

" Baby, I would rather show you

what you've been missing in your life

when I get inside "

- Jamie Foxx

xoxo

Me So Saddy Saddy

2009-04-20T18:25:00.006+07:00

This morning I ate a full plate of nasi goreng with BULGOGI (DUDES, BULGOGI!)
Then like less than 3 hours later I ate a bowl of futong's mie ayam, which tasted really good.
And I had a nap twice. AFTER I had lunch and like about 2 hours ago.
HOW MORE OF A PIGGY COULD I BE??????
I really couldn't resist the temptation of food................... T.T

Before Bali I've lost 2 kilograms because I reduced the portion of my meals and ate less during dinner. I didn't eat much rice. But these days I've been eating like crazy. Again :(:(

xoxo

Like A Saturday Night

2009-04-19T18:15:00.007+07:00

Saturday went great. It really was especially if compared to the-oh-super-boring Friday. But I made my Dad mad for coming home rather late cause of going to a friend's house just out of the blue without him knowing. When I got home and changed my clothes, my Dad entered my room and he cheesed off, badly. Which leaded up to him not allowing me to go out anymore. But I guess he was just big-mouthing because he was really fired-up that time. Cause this morning I was totally out of the woods, he didn't mention a thing. Well, he did. But not that much.

We were supposed to watch movies at Subtitle but Dhanes had no idea that we have to reserve the room like hours or a day before. So we hung out at Gelato instead, still in Darmawangsa Square. It turned out fun, you know. I thought it'd be rather awkward knowing that the only one I know really well was only Reuben. Not that I don't know the others, but I barely go out with them hehe. Kan I go out with CIMS a lot, jadi yeaaa gitu deh. There were Nabila, Dhanes, Sam, Reuben, and Yandi who came a tad late.

After we got bored of watching Dhanes ate his ice cream (ga deh bercanda haha) we hopped to Sency to play billiard. Well actually only the guys played. Me and Nabila weren't playing because we both suck and the place was a bit crowded so we didn't want to humiliate our selves :p But Nabila played a bit though, she wanted to learn. Then at 9, after Didit arrived we headed to Laras' house because there was a BBQ. I really didn't want to go because first I wasn't invited directly by Laras herself, second it was a grade 9's acara, and third I told Dad I'd be home at 8.

But in the end I ended up going to Laras'. The way there was really hilarious. The boys in Sam's car (the I one I rode in) threw coins to Didit's car and vice versa. It was really really stupid and childish haha. When we arrived at Laras' Yandi threw a ball to Didit's and then Dhanes threw a bottle of pee to Sam's HAHAHA. Parah banget deh lol. At Laras' it was pretty awkward because the place was filled with them grade 9-ers. I was like "I curse Dhanes for inviting me here". But thank God there was Mita who couldn't stop talking and kept me companied :) I couldn't just follow Reuben and the others all the time, right? But awhile later my Dad knew from my driver that I left Sency so I directly left without even grabbing a single food. I was super nervous, sweating, and HUNGRY. Really bad. Hahaha. But my Saturday went great despite of my dad's squawks and aching stomach.

So, how about yours? :)

xoxo

Randoooomnesshhh

2009-04-17T14:00:00.005+07:00

I'm bored. Like really really bored. Going home early on every Friday doesn't always do me good. Not unless I have plans, haha. I want to pay another visit to Binus tapi I just went there last Monday and I don't really wanna go there too often so I skipped Friday tutor for nothing but hbo movies, a nap, and computer. And what worsen it is that I suddenly feel like eating sushi. Argh I wanna go to ps now. Or at least anywhere but home.

xoxo

School Break <3

2009-04-16T21:09:00.003+07:00

It's scaring you know, when your mind suddenly thinks ahead about the future. Thinking about what's gonna happen with your social life, education, and a lot others. Earlier at school we had a gathering at the court to do a prayer for the 12th graders since they're about to face UAN next week. I don't know why it's like I suddenly think about me being one of them next year. I'm gonna be a 12th grader in July and must take UAN in April 2010. Which............. is very devastating. Because I'm supah lazy and not a study-freak. Now how about the entrance tests I must take next year to get accepted in several universities? And how about the fact that I actually have no passion in becoming a doctor? I wish life could get easier as time passes by. I want to live life to the fullest. Unburden with no hands tied. Which could and should never happen. Cause what satisfies you comes next after your grieves.

Soooooo let's just talk about something carefree, shall we? :)

Next week school is off for a week!!! One whole week, dude! Woohoooo. No boring maths, boring chemistry, and humid school atmosphere. I'm gonna fill the week up with movies, laughs, and joy and you, my lovely binusians, will be jealous of me. As jealous as hell is to heaven. HAHAHA. Maan I love school break so much <3

And yeah, I've been waiting for quite some time for something that is so uncertain...

xoxo

Reuben's Surprise Cake

2009-04-12T07:17:00.002+07:00

Yesterday was Reuben's seventeenth birthday! Happy birthday, Ben! CIMS, plus JP (for those who are clueless, JP is Julian Perdana) went to his house at evening to surprise him :)

His mom didn't let him go out, thanks to Rayner who already had a talk with her. So Reuben asked us to come to his house to keep him companied. But we all made excuses and stuffs, I cancelled my visit very last minute, so Reuben began to sulk (in which he wouldn't admit) and texted everyone: "Ud g ush ksini, lain kali aj y" HAHHAHAHAHHAH. And he also told me, "Ud dh, g ush pd dtg aja. Drpd g mau, pd g niat gt". Lol, we couldn't help but laugh. So at 3 we left Andrew's house and headed to Reuben's. Also with the help of his 2 brothers, we finally managed to surprise Reuben successfully! :D

Happy birthday dude!

xoxo

<3

2009-04-10T23:18:00.003+07:00

It was a feeling I can't explain. And it felt like harmony.

Akon

:):):)

Tanjung Lesung: A Total Blast <3

2009-04-09T05:23:00.004+07:00

TANJUNG LESUNG = A LOTTA FUN !!!

<3<3<3

In the end I ended up going to Tanjung Lesung anyway :D Turned out that the 2 teachers weren't coming. And I really thank God that they didn't, cause if they did Tanjung Lesung would be a tedious trip. It was in fact a lotta funnnn :D :D :D Shorts are allowed, in fact the teachers didn't even comment on the way we dress. The study tour to Puspitek was the only part of the trip that is boring. Maan I didn't expect Tanjung Lesung to be this fun.

The place, the villa, was really nice! It was beyond my expectation. Too bad we only stayed for a night there, my satisfaction is half filled. But at least I had a blast from this trip and I totally can't wait for our next trip to Bali!

Oh, and I finally took a group picture in the beach :D

xoxo

Tanjung Lesung = na ah!

2009-04-01T16:18:00.007+07:00

I feel like a total douchebag

I feel really bad

I feel really wrong

but in the other hand,

I feel right

Next week I'll be going to Tanjung Lesung with my school. Which I don't really know whether I should or shouldn't be excited. All I'm excited about is the beaaachh! Meaning I'll be dressed in my summer clothes and photo session! But......................... I haven't mentioned that it is a study tour held by my school. A PUBLIC school. Which means..... I have to dress properly. No shorts, no tanks, no babydolls. Which also equals to sucks and lack of fun! Not to mention, as I heard from some insiders, that 2 female teachers, whose presences are downright unwelcome, will be joining us! They'll be all noisy if we wear improper attire.

Maaan it'll be a total pain in the ass!!! I'm not really sure if I still wanna join this study tour. It's also only 2 days 1 night, and the first day will be spent in Serpong for a small tour to a place where physics is written all over its place. I rather spend the whole day home watching dvd and eating corn flakes ;p

So anyone wants to rescue me and bring me to some other places on the 8th and 9th? :)

xoxo

Thoughts Vomit

2009-03-31T08:12:00.003+07:00

Had a girl's day out with my girlfriends from 68 yesterday. We watched shopaholic and it was really good. I actually have asked cims to come to ps to meet up but only Michi and Andrew could made it. Despite that Andrew left super early. So while my friends bought mineral water in food hall me and michi headed to fili and talked about stuffs. A lot of stuffs :D

I have a lot going through my mind and I don't know how I could interpret it. I once kept a secret from my friends, afraid it would burst out into an issue that could ruin our friendship. But turned out not :D I'm so happy that they accept and actually support it. Even though some of them warned me to be careful and all that. It feels so free you know that they all finally know about it, so I don't have to keep any secret from them again. I love them. So much :) I hope when this doesn't work out well in the coming times, it won't intervene our friendship.

I may have done something wrong, something I shouldn't have done. It can be a good thing, but it can also be my risk, my loss, and my regret. For certain people they can see me as a bitch, but it's my decision. And I'm continuing it.

xoxo

Bali, I'm in Love ! :)

2009-03-27T11:19:00.006+07:00

Been away from blogspot for quite a while hehe. I have always wanted to share a lot of things, but everytime I was about to write, my mind went blank and I began to lose interest.

A week ago, right at this hour I was on my way to the airport accompanied by my mom. I was ecstatic cause Bali was in front of me. I had it pictured in my head crystal clear and I totally couldn't wait to land and meet up with my friendss :):) I had to skip school cause of that, and I for sure had no regrets. At first I felt rather uneasy having to travel by air alone, I haven't got to the pace of being independent. But it went well, it wasn't that bad. Nothing went out of the ordinary and brought me any trouble. Oh, despite that I could have almost lost my luggage. I was clumsy, ignorant, and nervous, I didn't even realize that my luggage had already been moving around all this time. We stayed at Kuta Harris, and the place is really nice. Our rooms were like close to each other, so we could hop in to each other's room that easily. Even though we had to walk a little far to get to the shopping district, it was worth it.

I'm kinda disappointed though that I didn't get the chance to take group pictures by the beach. I mean I've always wanted to have at least one picture from this trip. The last time was like 2 years ago when I went to Bali with Ichell, Della, Fenny, and Sevira. But 2 years ago? Maaan it's far gone. Maybe next time hahaha. I really wish I could've stayed longer. It was too short and I need more refreshment.

I haven't got pictures from rayner's cam :( but I do have ones from my mobile phone hihi.

Friday, first day with filza my beybay

Last day :(:( the day we checked out

I don't care with all the sweats and the hot sizzling weather,

I just wanna go back to Bali. It's paradise :(

Oh, please?

xoxo

I Wanna Ditch School !

2009-03-15T16:36:00.002+07:00

I'm so not in the mood for school. Especially that tomorrow is monday with its hot and humid morning ceremony. And not to mention all the stupid assignments and some annoying teachers huh. I really want to ditch school, pretending to be sick and stay home. Then just wait until Friday comes and head to paradise!!!

Omg 5 more days and I'll be going to Bali and I seriously can't wait for it. Cause I know this time it will be a lot of fun.

xoxo

Quote of the Day

2009-03-09T00:49:00.001+07:00

"Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not"

Plain White T's

Bali: CIMS and Binusian Here I Come!

2009-03-08T21:09:00.003+07:00

I sometimes wonder with what goes around my dad's thoughts you know? Because...... I'M ALLOWED TO GO TO BALI WITH BINUSIAN!!! Hihihihihi :) :) I'm sooo excited totally! Hihi it'll be on the 20th of March. Omigosh I so can't wait for that day to come. But I'll be going by myself and it kinda scares me. It'll be my first time ever flying unaccompanied :p hihi

My gooosh thank you dad for granting my wish :p

xoxo

Kick Ass

2009-03-01T15:50:00.003+07:00

I was supposed to have a girl's day out yesterday but turned out i was ditched by the girls for the guys. HAHA just kidding, I didn't mind hhe. We're lacking of participants in the other hand. So gdo was cancelled.

The second Ichell called to cancel gdo, I contacted Andrew. So instead, I spent my weekend with the cims boys minus Jon. He, as always, bailed on us for uncertain reasons. Jon, jon... you fat liar. We hung at the outdoor seats at Starbucks and had dinner in the food court. Then went to Ratu Plaza for a quick dvd shopping. My weekend eventually ended up great once more =]

Today, I just realized that I inherit quiet a lot of my dad's attribute. I admit I'm a selfish bitch, but h-e-l-l-o? My dad is worst. Man he's a really hard-headed person. And nowadays he could instantly get mad for just a small error. grosh :S

xoxo

Embarassed :S

2009-02-25T23:28:00.007+07:00

This early morning, I was put down to an embarrassment!!!!

Shortly as I arrived at school I tripped on the stairs and the way I fall... don't ask. It was so embarrassing. I turned my head to check whether anyone saw me falling. I was pretty sure I was safe because as far as I could remember, no one was walking behind me. But it turned out a nightmare when I saw one of my IC juniors was there!!! He (note, a he!!!) was about to go up the stairs. Oh my God I hope he didn't see me. It was shameful. I couldn't help but getting all salting every time I passed by him today. Gooosh I hope he would forget about it :S

Anyway it's mr. hasan's 27th birthday today! Happy birthday sir Hasan! He's my class' physics teacher. My class bought him a birthday cake and surprised him. The plan kinda failed actually because of me. Me sorry guys! hehehe. He's weird but he's really cool you know. He's a good teacher. Don't be gr okay sir!

Sir Hasan and his cake!

p.s: i really want to sleep but i can't. I napped for 3 hours and i really don't feel like sleeping soon. but it's almost 12 and i've got school tomorrow ;|

xoxo

Woopsie! I'm Most Probably Busted :p

2009-02-22T18:36:00.004+07:00

Hey yalll arrived safely at home about an hour ago. Singapore was dope, shop much. Skipping school for 2 days is kind of worth it :p

I just realized that on last week I added my teacher's facebook and he just approved me a while ago. Then he left a message on my page asking about my health. You know, I was supposed to be sick and my status on facebook was about me going on a vacation to Singapore! Hahhaa how cool is that huh? Thank God he isn't the killer type :S

I hope he didn't read my previous statuses. And of course I hope he won't find out about this blog especially not in anytime soon. But if he happens to find out about this blog and reads this entry... all I can say is... OH WELL forgive me :p

And my eyes had spotted quite some cuties in Singapore baby :p

xoxo

Hugs and kisses

2009-02-14T21:24:00.007+07:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

How's your 14th of february going on? I, myself, had another cims day out. We'd been planning it for about a week and were so confused on where we're going to spend vday together. And eventually we ended up going to filicium, which is in ps, and spent the rest of the day there. Not in fili the whole day, though. We had lunch in sushi tei (like for the gazillion times) and played pool, we skipped the cinema.

It could've been more fun if we actually go to reuben's and spend vday there. Watch dvds, eat takeouts or delivery, play wii, and etc. But fili is enough i guess :) at least i wasn't home doing nothing. Even though the day's nothing so romantic, but it was actually remarkable. We spent more than 2 hours in filicium and it was one hell of a day.

thx yella for taking the pic and sorry cause ure not in it :S

"breezy fili. and we're feeling it!"

"afternoon jokes with mr. reuben"

xoxo

p.s: filza u're missing it out! =(

Early Sunshine

2009-02-11T07:05:00.002+07:00

Yoo hoo :D

I'm at school right now, web design-ing. Yknow I thought I'd sleep earlier last night, I went to bed at around 10 pm. But I couldn't resist the temptation to watch Balls of Fury again. It was hilarious and made me laugh quite a couple times. And here I am now in class, super sleepy, all weary, and my eyes are half-opened. Okay, a bit of exaggeration :p But I literally woke up at a quarter past 5 and it's friggin too early.

But oh well....

So valentine's coming in 3 days. It's gonna be differeeeennt now that I'm single this year :) 2009 should be the blast! I wish I could spend my 09 valentine with cims. Anywhere would be fine I just want to feel the excitement I used to have back with them in grade 10. Gooosh I miss u guys cimsey and our historical conversations (lol). But not that I don't wanna spend v day without u, ichell! hhahaha but I dont wanna ruin your vday plan with alvie :p heiheihe but i'll let u know soon oceeei!

The test hasn't been started yet. Web design's. Maan I love to photoshop :p

xoxo

ben stiller is a cutie <3

2009-02-09T22:18:00.007+07:00

i watched the heartbreak kid yesterday. and based on my observation i think ben stiller is cute :p i know, i know he's old (he's friggin 43!) and ichel said that he's got a perverted look but his smile is super cute! and i dont knoooow i think he's just adorable!!!

BUT for the record... i'm not into old people okay? dont think of me as an om-om lover! i wouldn't want to date guys as old as my mom. i just think ben stiller is cute that's all. BUT again, if i were older i'd love to marry him :p jiahahahahaiahai

please. please dont think of me as a freak... and also note this: this is just a temporary crush

p.s: ONE MORE THING! i also think that ben stiller's smile = david archuleta's!!! witness it yourself!

xoxo

Nostalgia

2009-02-08T23:02:00.004+07:00

Had a dinner with cims last friday. We went to Praline at Kemang but we didn't take any pictures. So sad. But it was a total blast and it became one of my amazing nights :) after the dine we bounced and went to pim for a late night walk. Ended up in coffee bean chitty chatting. It was a lotta fun. It has been quite a while that we haven't had such fun. With them being so tightly tied with school works and me disappearing from binus :| So yeah it was really great that we were all there last Friday. Felt like grade 10.

love :)

So gtg. Headache strikes back !

xoxo

A Trip to Dream Land Would Be Nice In Such Situation

2009-01-27T21:15:00.002+07:00

My classmates just got their last oct/nov igcse exam results this morning. And frankly, the results were totally not satisfying. I am, indeed, glad that I didn't take the igcse test. I was of course wasn't prepared enough and I probably won't use the igcse certificate in any way tho. So it's rather unimportant. Which leads up to me worrying about taking some of AS level exams on may/june that will surely drives me nuts. Goshy goshy, IB maybe hard for you guys Binusian, but Camridge's surely is not something you'd call a piece of cake.

xoxo

so not ready

Admit That I'm Nice

2009-01-25T14:22:00.006+07:00

I think I'm gonna have to repeal some words that I've written on my latest post. I just realized it was a bit harsh and cruel. I brutally cursed my sister, indirectly, which was rather inappropriate. I'm not much of a foul mouthed and kind of hate it when I hear somebody say those words (yknow, like all the swears and curses). It's like they're never be taught and have no moral. And those words are obviously so not ear-friendly. No offense for those who love swearing and cursing, cause I admit I sometimes do that too. That's why I'm trying to rectify myself about me being an inhuman sister regarding to the previous post that I wrote last Thursday.

I'm still mad though, at her. Cause I know she'll hardly change. But I hope she will as she grows up and realizes how immature she was back in her youth. In fact, I'll just trust the time to make it happen. I used to own her attitude, back in middle school. Now I've changed and it feels a lot better being a not-so-completely different person. A friend of mine once told a joke, "People can change, yo, even me" and she was right. People can change, and when it's not righteous, the change is a must.

I hate to say this but sorry and happy belated 15th birthday. I know you had a good one.

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Soooo yesterday I went to ps with Michi, Karen, Rayner, Andrew, and Reuben. It was supposed to be CIMS' day out but it turned out some weren't available so it was just the 6 of us. We watched Pintu Terlarang, an Indo thriller movie. The story was smart but the movie was POOR! Omg it was really boring and really abstract you know? Praise heaven it was a thriller movie so it helps by making me all curious about how the story will ends. If it were a romance movie I'll be drooling as I fall asleep.

Pictures of the day =)

xoxo

HATE IT AND ACCEPT IT

2009-01-22T18:53:00.003+07:00

I LOATHE MY SISTER SO MUCH I WOULDN'T CRY IF SHE'S IN A COMA.

SHE IS SO FUCKING RUDE, AND FYI NOT ONLY TO ME BUT TO OTHER PEOPLE AS WELL. SHE HAS NO MANNER, SHE IS A DISGRACE, AND SHE HAS A FRIGGIN HIDEOUS PERSONALITY. I LOATHE MY SISTER SO MUCH AND I DON'T CARE THAT IT IS HER BIRTHDAY TOMORROW. I DON'T FUCKING CARE.

SHE MAY ACTS LIKE SHE'S GOT AN A+ PERSONALITY WHEN IT'S ACTUALLY A Z. FYI EVEN MY MOTHER HATES THE WAY SHE ACTS AND SHE FEELS LIKE SHE'S DISRESPECTED. SHE DOESN'T HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO BE A GOOD YOUNGER SISTER. BELIEVE ME, IF YOU WERE ME YOU'LL FEEL JUST THE SAME WAY AS I AM RIGHT NOW. OR THE WAY I FEEL THROUGHOUT ALL THESE YEARS SINCE THEY DAY SHE WAS BORN.

NO FUCKING xoxo

*sorry for the caps-locked swearing. I was really pissed off.*

Bali in 5 Months

2009-01-20T20:29:00.004+07:00

Being a little honest, methinks yesterday's post was a bit exaggerated. The test, which was actually only a small quiz, turned out to be rather easy. There was no essay and I got 90/100.Talk about showing off? :p OF COURSE I'm not flunking chapter 5 that's why! I'm getting well in bio hihi.

So today at school our class gathered with the 10th grader, the international class one of course, during lunch to discuss about our holiday plan on July. It's decided that we're going to Baliiiiii! Wooohooo I'm so excited about it! Cause Bali means shopping spree (!!!), dozens of pictures, a stroll down the beach, and once in your high school year school trip without us having to bring stationary and makes us write pages of report writing what the trip is about. It's pure vacation and it's gonna be freakin awsum! At least my holiday is already planned which means I'll be out of town during holidayy yippie. But the bad news is that my end of grade 11 holiday is only 2 weeks. 14 days :(:( It doesn't even deserve to be called holiday! Before I got into 68 I had 5 friggin weeks of holidaaay. And now it's going down to 2. Take it or leave it x(

Nyways, I miss CIMSeyyy. I miss us hanging out together and sharing some laughs. We totally should go out again, like all of us! I miss kenanga =]

xoxo

Biology Talk

2009-01-19T21:30:00.005+07:00

O my whoomp, I just can't get enough of DNA, RNA, and proteins.

BIOLOGY IS ASS(2x)inating me!

Actually this chapter doesn't really need much of a study because it isn't as hard as chromosomes and cells but still... it just drives you nuts knowing that your chapter 5 small test is gonna be tomorrow! I've done my 30 minutes of biology study and I hope I can do well tomorrow. I've read the text book, which I never usually do, and got so full of it.

But come to think of it, I am lucky enough to be able to study science instead of humanity. Despite that science is a brain-killing machine, I get to learn a lot of things that concerns our body, health, life, etc. that I couldn't acknowledge if I cram humanity in the first place. So... oh well. I'm sooo stuck with biology and have to pretend that I get a kick out of it! >.<

xoxo

Good Afternoon

2009-01-18T17:33:00.009+07:00

So... what do you think about the new background picture and banner? I know it's kinda narcissistic of me to put my pictures on the banner, but it is my self-identity. Huahahahha. Come on I've put some of you guys' pictures on my background, I should get one too, shouldn't I? A special one =D They took me quite some time though to finish it. I was editing it just to kill the time (since I was in a real major need of a boredom-rescuer) but then I just kept on doing it and thought that it might be good for my plain blog's background. And so there goes the final result. I know I don't actually have the permission to change the background and the banner since the layout isn't made by me, I just hope I don't get caught (and hoping that it's not copyrighted!) =/

Weekends are over tomorrow which means my parents are gonna be home. I seriously had a whacky weekends and I hope my next weekends will be fantastic. I'm totally dying to shop. My closet seriously needs some fresh new outfits (Though the last time I shopped was only a week ago :p).

xoxo

I'd Shave Your Butt Off If That Means I Could Spend My Saturday in Anywhere But Home

2009-01-17T20:07:00.009+07:00

O my gawwwd I had a really awesome day! Want to hear how my splendid day goes?

I went to Plaza Senayan with a bunch of friends. We had lunch at Sushi Tei, chatted and laughed about lots and lots of things. Hung out at Starbucks and then hit the theatre to watch a brand new movie. After we finished watching movie we window shopped and tried on couples of dresses and took hundreds of pictures with silly faces and great poses. Then at 9 we separated and went home with a smile on our face. My Saturday was tremendous =)

NOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTT

I wished today happens just the way I imagined it would be. Want to know how it actually goes? Well, I watched 2 and a half dvds, ate 2 mcd's chicken and a cheeseburger (I had to like order 3 cheeseburgers because it seemed kinda impudent of me if I only order chicken mcd. I still have 1 more at home tho, anybody wants it?), had a friggin loooong nap, 5 minutes of treadmill jog, late shower at 8, and sitting in front of computer browsing. Just the Saturday I didn't imagine throughout the weekdays. Not to mention that my parents are gone to Surabaya and won't be home until Monday. With my parents' out of town I thought I'll be spending my Saturday in anywhere but home. Turns out I didn't.

School's In T.T

2009-01-03T21:10:00.005+07:00

Call me tardy, but merry christmas to those who celebrated it on the 08 and happy new year to everyone :) May you be whoever you want to be and achieve what you haven't achieved back in 2008.

Personally, 2008 has been quite a great year. A lot of things have happened back in 2008, good times and bad times. Though I prefer to just cherish all my good times especially those splendid ones back in grade 10 :) So, unlike some other people, I didn't really feel new year bash's sensation. It was like it's just another day, changing of month from December to January, and so the point is: nothing's actually really special about new year. I didn't even make a new year resolution, cause in my case it isn't working so well. I never get any taller T.T, a little less lazier, and still don't have strong will to exercise my ass off. But umm, frankly I do have some resolutions but they're not to be shared and I'm not really into writing it here. So I guess I'll just keep it for myself.

And gosh my holiday is over =( school's starting tomorrow. If I still go to binus I'll still have one more week of holiday. But too bad, Nai, you're not anymore. I'm not really feeling school right now, I still want holiday. I still want to hang out, watch movies during weekdays, and even dufan! I'm gonna miss out Dufan on the 7th! Screw public school. Haaah, at least I get to go to Rayner's on Thursday.

xoxo

2008-12-14T13:59:00.005+07:00

"Life is long, there will be pain but life goes on"

Ne-Yo

Beauty Sleep

2008-12-14T04:07:00.009+07:00

Waking up pretty early, ac's off, and yes it's kinda hot. Been wanting to go to sleep again but I can't. Since presently I seldom write any post I think I'm just gonna write one here when my mind is still fresh and on its normal state. I slept at 9 last night and it felt really good, regaining health. On friday I went to Bandung with cims (minus filza, yella, and chris) and Janice. It was great, I enjoyed it quite a lot. During the trip I didn't get the chance to rest until the trip back home. And when I got home I didn't go to sleep directly, I played pet society until 2 am and got to wake up the next worning on 7 zzz. It was reallly really tiring. Perhaps that is the reason why I've been feeling so weary yesterday. And not to mention that nowadays I've been sleeping late again. How I miss semester exam week, went to bed around 9 - 10 pm almost every night.

I'm currently addicted to playing pet society on facebook, influenced by my sister haha. It's just fun and totally addictive. I only stop playing when I couldn't get any coins anymore by the day. My pet's name is Beanie. I named her Beanie because it suddenly popped up in my head hihi. I can prove me right, that pet society is addictive. Pet society really does take a lot of my time. Even my sims 2 playing time. By only less than a week, 4 days I may say, my Beanie has reached the 21st level! I'm gonna catch up to you, chel! In no time! huehuehue. And fyi this is the first game ever (maybe, just a bit exaggerating :p) that makes me work my ass off to obtain the money. The game's really mingy people...

Anyway I finally found out why my Safari couldn't launch You Tube, imeem, and other plug-ins that' has anything to do with flash or java script craps. I checked the preferences for bazillion times and I finally could solve it last Friday. It was because the plug-ins weren't enabled -.- I was like "what the hell!?!? only because of this?" hahaha. The java script is already enabled and yet it still didn't work. I thought there was something wrong with my mac's java script. Thanks to my macbook, I get to compare the safari's settings. So goodbye Opera! It's done and done!

News update!

The sims 3's gonna be out on February 2009! Totally can't wait for it to launch and arrive here! I hope the game won't be disappointing and pointless.

Did you notice how colorful today's post is? hihi =]

And it certainly doesn't look pretty nice :p

xoxo

New Classmates <33

2008-11-25T16:21:00.003+07:00

Been in a break for quiet a long time hehe. Just too busy with stuffs, and life.

It's almost half a year that I transfer to 68. At the first time it was a bit awkward being a new student, but nowadays I already feel like I'm now a part of it. And frankly, I thank God that I am transferred to 68, not any other school. It was hard fitting in at first with my classmates at first. But now, I just can't spend a day in school without bursts of laugh. I finally made friends and I enjoy it =)

xoxo

Tagged =)

2008-11-12T07:52:00.008+07:00

Sooo been abandoning this blog for quite awhile. Not really in the mood to write though I got loads of things to be written. Tomorrow school starts :( huhuu goodbye my leisure time.

Anyways, I've been tagged by Ichell. And here is how it goes.

Answer the questions below, do a Google image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation.Tag 5 other people to do the same once you've finished answering every question.

1. The age you'll be your next birthday

Still a year to go! But time flies so fast, I'm getting older aint i?

2. A place you'd like to travel to

Anywhere is fine. I travel to shop so it's not really a big deal where I'll be traveling.

3. Your favorite place:

My bedroom knows me better than anyone

4. Your favorite food:

One of the reasons why I can't stop gaining weight

5. My favorite pet

The cutest pet ever

6. Your favorite colour combination

Pink and green were made for each other

7. Your favorite piece of clothing

Summer clothes are my best outfits hihi =) Don't mind the bathing suit, it's not included.

8. Your favorite all time song

Go On Girl by Ne-Yo took my soul away

9. Your all time favorite TV show

antm all the way !

10. First name of your significant other/crush

Currently nobody :)

11. The town in which you live

jakarta

12. Your first job

It'll probably be a fun first experience (hotties alert?)

13. Your dream job

I'd love to design homes :)

14. A bad habit you have

In the phase of tryina stop doing it.

15. Your worst fear

Losing everything

16. The one thing you'd like to do before you die

I have to have my own babies ! =)

17. The first thing you'll buy if you get $1000000

Hell yeaaa I'll buy a lot of things !

I'm tagging anyone =)

xoxo

High School Should Never Ends

2008-10-21T20:16:00.004+07:00

High school should never come to an end. High school is just the blast and the best! (Despite our obligation to study) Especially when you're in the right place and with the right crowd. On last Monday, a week ago, the 13th of October, 3 days after my birthday to be exact, my 68 classmates surprised me with a handful of my birthday cake! A chocolate cake with chocolate topping written "Happy Birthday Nainai!" =) I was flattered for the second time. My second birthday cake!!!

This year is probably the best birthday I ever had. Thanks a lot friendsy! Not to mention with the powder you guys threw at me. Causing some strands of my hair to turn white. Ha! Nevertheless, I love you guys, classmates :)

I'm off from school for 3 days. My classmates are doing their IGCSE exam at SMA 8. Since me and Bia aren't doing the exam so we are unofficially on a school holiday. Being off from school is just great. You know... no chemistry, biology, blah blah blah school craps. But in the other hand, frankly writing, school's on would be better. Come on, I have nothing to do unless adding more fat to my already fat body.

Here goes my pointless holiday routine (when there's no precise plan): Wake up, do the toilet thing, play comp, watch tv, eat, yada yada yada. My days are too stiff if I have nothing to do. Tomorrow I'm going to Binus. Going to filicium, hang out with cims. At least for a day I have the chance to do something that doesn't waste time lol.

Oh ya, good luck classmates! You guys will nail IGCSE! Good luck! =)

xoxo

Second Bye Bye, Noy

2008-10-11T00:32:00.005+07:00

So been thinking about letting Noy go for the second time. I have my own path and he has his too. Maybe I was wrong to ever like him in the verry verry first place. But at least I get to learn something too, right?

Maybe things work better if we are just friends. But hey, things have changed. Things between me and Noy. I just realize that he doesn't have the traits that I'm searching for. And we're not really connected in a way. With him being so far away... wouldn't it be easy for me to let go? When I thought about choosing him, he asked me to be with AB3. Right. How... nerve-wrecking, isn't it?

Am I wrong to ever know him in the verry verry first place?

I should've meant my very first bye. Bye.

xoxo

Awesomeness :)

2008-10-10T23:20:00.003+07:00

Omg I had a great birthday :)

I went to Plaza Senayan today with CIMS + Karen. And then I decided to just treat them lunch. It just feels wrong if I don't treat them something. So Ichell, Della, dkk the treat for you guys later ya! After we had our lunch at Sushi Tei we went to our Filicium. As always.

The girls, except me and Karen kaya suddenly misah gitu. Their excuse was to accompany Filza seeing her Mom. And I believed them. So we went to Filicium first and hung out there. After quiet a while suddenly the girls showed up with a cake! Awwww thank you guys so muuuchoooo :') Thank you for the surprise cake! Too bad Filza bought the oh-so-scary candles! I was even too scared to blow out the candles hahhaha. I love you guuuuyyyyssssssss! Muah muah muah!

Me & Andrew =)

Me, blowing the candles hihi

~~Too bad I don't have any good pictures of my special day.~~ We couldn't take pictures grrrr screw that rule! But oh well, at least I have it recorded in my memory. Special and unforgettable. Thanks guys... for making my day :D

So far I already got 3 gifts. A pair of shoe from my bro and his gf, a cute dress from my retardos, and a flower. Hahahahahhaa :) Thanks a lot guys :):):)

xoxo

p.s: finally got some pics! 2 are uploaded! (grinning)

CIMS Conference Made My Birthday :)

2008-10-10T01:32:00.004+07:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY ME :) hihihi

I LOVE CIMS SO MUCH :) They made a conference and then called me to say happy birthday. Omg I was so flattered I almost cry. I was a bit unhappy at first since Rayner, Andrew, and Reuben who were having an msn conference with me just went offline. I was a bit like "what the heeeelll dont they remember my birthday?". I was filled with disappointment at first. Neither one of them said happy birthday to me... at first. Though some other friends wished me a happy birthday through msn, facebook, friendster, and sms. Thank you guys :)

And then suddenly Yella called. Yeay! At least someone from CIMS remembers my birthday.

Yella: "Hallo nai?"

Naida: "Hai yellaaaa hehe"

But then there was a familiar voice. I asked Yella about that strange voice. She kept on denying that maybe it was from my side. I heard laughs and I had the thought that it was Andrew's voice. Only Andrew. I didn't thought that suddenly... "HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NAI!" AWWWWWW I LOVE U GUYS CIMSEY :):) even though Filza and Jon were kind of late joining the conference. And then we chatted on the phone, the 8 of us. Me, Yella, Michi, Filza, Rayner, Jon, Reuben, and Andrew. Random stuffs. It was sooooo crowded pusing sendiri jadinya hehe. Gosh I love CIMS and I miss them so mucch. I hope I can go out with them tomorrow. If I have enough money I would totally treat them something. Wish me luck, people. Hope I have a great birthday-day tomorrow :)

Oh! Happy birthday to Vania and Rino too. We were born on the same day hihi. LC (TOC) ya, No? Hahahaha :)

xoxo

So Tired

2008-10-08T21:57:00.005+07:00

Went out with Michi, Yella, Rayner, and Andrew to Grand Indonesia to karaoke. And then watched Planet B-Boy with Andrew and Rayner. The girls went home earlier. So Andrew and Rayner became my bodyguards since they both are huge and i'm tiny haha. It looks funny when I looked at the glasses while we walked inside the mall and then compared their heights to mine. It's like I have 2 daddys or 2 bodyguards hahaha. The 3 of us then had our dinner in Sushi Tei. We chatted a lot, we ate a lot, and of course we had fun a lot. Overall, I rate my day an 8.

Yesterday I read the horoscope page from GoGirl! Magazine. Most of the time it matches my current situation. And damn right when I read the horoscope for Libra I laughed hard. It really matches my current situation! Hahahahha how cool. This is how it sounds:

"Stuck in between 2 choices, your past or your future. Everything depends on you. Think about it seriously, you don't want to regret it later."

Hahhahahahahahahahaha how ridiculous. Yes I've been thinking about it seriously. But I still can't make up my mind. I just don't wanna hurt either one of them. Oh ya past would be AB3 and future would be Noy.

I'm in love with One Call Away by Chingy. You guys should listen to it.

xoxo

Dilemmatic

2008-10-07T08:43:00.003+07:00

Already back in Jakarta! Yeayeayeay! Bali was awsum despite that I didnt go swimming at all. I just love the shopping spree! I'm sorry, Mom, I just love shopping too much.

I've been living too much drama nowadays. AB3's back and somehow it shakes my current relationship with Noy. It makes me thinking, or even forcing me to make a hard decision. AB3 is just too nice and that's what I dig from him. But he's just too... late! I know maybe I do feel something about him again, but wouldn't it be wrong for me to like 2 guys at the same time? Things with Noy don't go so smooth either. I dont think I could fit his lifestyle. But we've been through so much...

Damnnnn. Naida is in a big dilemma tralalalala.

xoxo

Selamat Hari Lebaran

2008-10-01T10:19:00.004+07:00

Gue males nulis sms jadi di sini aja deh.

SELAMAT HARI LEBARAN, MINAL AIDIN WALFA IDIN!

Mohon maaf lahir & batin...

I know I made a lot of mistakes jadi tolong dimaafin ya hehe.

And have a superb holiday everyone :)

Ya gitu deh sekilas aja rata-rata gaya sms lebaran kaya gitu kan haha.

Today's supposed to be the day where you have to forgive and be forgiven, right? But my sister keeps on arousing my anger on her. I could have loathed her but she's my sister. I'm so pissed off with her right now. Or even most of the time. I know I'm being bossy with her, telling her to do this and that. But for god's sake she's a friggin' lazy ass! She's even way lazier than I am! Gosh I'm so fed up with her. I hope she'll get what she deserves. She needs a goddamn LECTURE!

Nevermind. So talking about lebaran, doesn't it mean fasting month is over?? Yeaaaaayyyyy! It doesn't give me no good either. I didn't lose weight at all. Well, I did. Just a lil bit. Tomorrow I'll be going to Bali, for a family vacation. Soooo I'm gonna talk again later! Ciao!

And once again, minal aidin walfa idin :p

xoxo

Good Morning

2008-09-30T09:55:00.002+07:00

Thanks to my not-so-dearest friend, Michelle Natalie (jk hehe), I finally have Player's Prayer by Lloyd in my iTunes again. I hope all the playas in the world would stand on their knees to apologize to all the girls they have hurt! =)

Today I'm going to Dufan! Yeay! The last time I go there was last March. Actually CIMS has already made a Dufan plan but it's for next week. Today I'm going with Ichell, Della, Andrew, JP, Julianto, and Aswin. I just realize that whenever Aswin goes to Jakarta, we always go to Dufan with him. When there is Aswin, there is Dufan. Hahaha randomness :p

Anyway I found a new nickname for my crush! A codename! It's called Noy! You know like AB3 gitu2. So whenever I mention Noy I'm referring to my crush hehe.

Nyways odiways... I miss you, Noy :)

So Hard to Get You Outta My System

2008-09-25T20:34:00.004+07:00

I've been thinking about taking back my words from my "Bye-bye" post. I just can't tell him and I think I am now stuck with him. So effin' hard.

Damn, I mean, I just keep thinking about you
I mean, I wanna move on but I can't move on
It's like you have some kind of hold on me and I don't know

All the time we spent together

Makes it hard to get you outta my system

Outta My System by Bow Wow says it all ;p

It's just so hard to get you outta my system even if I wanted to.

xoxo

Yesterday's Photos

2008-09-25T10:25:00.013+07:00

Yaaaaaaaaay I found my card reader!
It was in my old bedroom. I didn't think about searching the card reader there last night haha. Thank God I found it hihi :)

Here are some of the pictures!

A lotta fun !

xoxo

BBQ & Della's Turning 16!

2008-09-24T23:02:00.006+07:00

Today was absolutely fun. Had a BBQ at Jon's (again) with cims plus Nabila and Ruben's Janice. It wasn't as fun as the previous BBQ since we weren't playing-with-water. It's just... it isn't complete without siram-siraman air. But nevertheless, it was a lotta fun too :) Just like old times. Too bad Andrew had to leave earlier for his grandma's birthday. He didn't get a chance to eat Rayner's spaghetti and Filza's chicken teriyaki. Thanks for cooking us dinner, guys! Hahaha sorry I wasn't too handy. But the foods you guys cook were tasty!

Actually Della celebrated her birthday tonight in Segarra but I couldn't come. The time collided with cims' BBQ. I wanted to come, really. But Cims had planned this BBQ since weeks ago when Della informed me about the treat last night. It was very last minute. Sorry Dell, pengen banget gue dateng. Coba lo bilang dari minggu minggu lalu. Gue kan bisa postpone BBQ nya kalo gitu huuuu. Nvm but happy birthday, Dell! I'll try finding something worthy for you!

We actually took great pictures from our small gathering at Jon's. However... I couldn't upload it to my computer SINCE I lost my goddamn memory card reader! Arghhh it's not in my sister's or my brother's room. It's not in my room either. Please God help me find the card reader. Aww man, too much whining won't help huuu :(

So last but not least...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DELLA! Happy sweet 16! My cumi friend! =D

xoxo

New Layout

2008-09-22T06:25:00.005+07:00

So... I haven't been sleeping since I wrote the previous post. I said I was going back to bed but actually I couldn't. Which means I only had 4 hours of sleep last night. I'm not feeling too well for school today. Thank you God. I can still have a lot of time for a bedtime revenge.

Second so... since I was all wide awake for around 2 and a half hours since 4 am, I decided to reconstruct my blog. It needs update and a fresh new layout. I thought it'd be a lot convenience to have everything stores in one page. I also love the white frame that comes with every pictures that I upload here. It just looks neat. Now my blog looks neat. Coolness.

Anyway, I'm in love with Ne-Yo. Not as in "love" love. I am referring to his songs. Well, not all of them. I bought his latest album and the first couples of track are good. The last 7 tracks are good and ear-friendly. But they're not so catchy. You guys should listen to Mad. I just looove the tune. I'm gonna upload it here as the background song later. I don't recommend you to buy the CD, just download it. Ne-Yo and Chris Brown are my R&B heroes. Can't wait for Chris Brown to launch his third album. Well, I hope he's in the process of making one.

Talking about R&B... nowadays I've been listening to some of Flo Rida's songs. Not that his music is R&B (his' hip-hop by the way), Ne-Yo just reminds me of Flo Rida :p I'm not a biggie fan of hip-hops but Flo Rida's songs are great. Well actually... I happen to have only 3 songs. Low (d'ohhh), Elevator, and In the Ayer. I don't know his other songs. I hope the others are as good as the 3 songs that catch my ear's attention. Go Flo Rida!

My writing mood was on. Now it's turned off. And I'm hungry. Gonna grab something to eat. Catcha' later!

xoxo

Morning Pee Call

2008-09-22T04:20:00.006+07:00

I'm not fasting today so I'm supposed to wake up like at something in the morning. But since I had to pee, I woke up at 4. Just in the right time for sahur. Hahahaha. So the point is... I'm bored :p

Soooo Saturday night was fun. After long overdue, I finally went out with Karen. And Michi. Too. Luckily I still had my period so I could eat lunch with them. We ate sushi tei. It was like "finally"! It's been a month since I last eat at sushi tei. After we had our lunch we watched Mamma Mia. At first I was like, "what the hell?" I wasn't expecting Mamma Mia. But since Karen and Michi wanted to watch Mamma Mia, so I just go with the flow. The movie turned out great. Some scenes were hilarious and not to mention the dances. So yeah, I don't regret watching the movie hehe.

After movie we met with Cims guys in Sency. It was a lotta fun. Just like the old days (as Andrew said it) only without Filza and Yella unfortunately. Ugh I love weekends and I love it more whenever I spend it with friends :)

Me, Michi, and Karen

Me, Jon, Andrew, Michi, Karen

Filicium no. 3

Gtg back to bed then. My eyes are heavy -.-

xoxo

Bye bye

2008-09-21T13:45:00.004+07:00

I'm starting to get tired of waiting. It's already 3 months, almost 4, and still no more progress. My mind starts thinking that maybe I'm not really ready for a commitment. 3 months is my limit and that's it. Just like what happened in AB3's case. So I guess this is it. I gotta talk to 'him'.

Sorry, but this is for the best. I know you still love your girlfriend. So be with her. She needs you. I hope we can still be friends like we used to.

xoxo

CIMS forever

2008-09-13T21:35:00.004+07:00

I just read Filza's latest post. See God, most of us want grade 10 back. So Goooood please ohh puh-lease rewind the time! I miss bio class haha. We sat like at the back of the class and took over 2 tables. One for cims boys and one for the girls plus Sonia. Hahahahahhaha it was a lotta fuunnnnnnnn. And I also miss business class, math class, okay all the classeeeeessssss we had. Freaking miss you guys a lottt.

Stick Figure of Cims hihi :)

Drawn by Michi

I love you guys like a fat kid loves cakes!

I miss you guys like heeellllllllllllll

xoxo

Bored

2008-09-13T21:14:00.003+07:00

Bocen cuyyyyyy. Ahhhh coba tadi gue ikut ke taman suropati. Bosen banget gue huh huh huh.

Maannnn I miss him.

Sampai Kapan - Maliq and d'essentials

2008-09-12T20:11:00.002+07:00

Menantikanmu dalam jiwaku

Sabar ku menunggu, berharap sendiri

Aku mencoba merindukan bayangmu

Karena hanyalah bayanganmu

yang ada...

Hangat mentari dan terangnya rembulan

Mengiringi hari-hariku yang tetap tanpa kehadiranmu

Pantaskah diriku ini mengharapkan

Suatu yang lebih dari hanya

sekedar perhatian dari dirimu

Yang kau anggap biasa saja

Atau mestikah kusimpan dalam diri

Lalu ku endapkan rasa ini terus

Selama-lamanya...

Sampai kapan kubertahan

Ku menantikan kepastian

School-sick

2008-09-10T20:49:00.004+07:00

It has been 2 months and 10 days already since I go to 68. Since I'm no longer stepping my foot on my previous high school, BiNus. Mann I school-sick again huu. Haha like the word even exists? Seriously I miss Binus so much. I totally miss the uniform. I used to whine about the uniform then, now I realize the whines are unnecessary. I miss the skirt. The short skirt, to be exact. I'll be honest, I think I look much better in Binus' uniform.

And I miss free dress day. I miss dressing up to school every Friday. I mean I had a lotta fun back then. Especially during my sophomore year. Man I miss 10 B so damn much. I miss when we moved to other classes together, the jayus jokes, we spent our recess and lunch together. Awww how I miss our togetherness. I'd trade anything to go back to grade 10 again.

And second it has been hmm... 3 months and a day (wow) already since I'm crushing on him. Isn't it quite a long period? I've been waiting too long, it makes me keep on thinking whether I should just stop or keep continue waiting. I mean seriously I am single. And being single's supposed to be fun and unburdened. He's the burden and yet I couldn't drop the bomb. So yeah I've been thinking about giving up and just let him stay with his girlfriend. And then us, being friends again. But could I? Or could we?

To tell the truth, I like us better when we weren't as close as we are now. We used to have more fun than we are now. It seems like he's changing. No, our relationship kinda change. The closer we get, the more he'll change. If you can't choose, then just stick with your girlfriend. Don't worry about me. But one thing that I want from you, if you happen to read this post, can we still be friends? And keep sharing stories? Cause I had a lot of fun with you. Before.

xoxo

d'masiv & lain-lain

2008-09-03T00:21:00.007+07:00

kenapa ya, band indo d'masiv yang dulu gue anggep norak gitu tiap kali dengerin di gen fm (biasa, supir gue. bukan gue ya haha) sekarang kok jadi gue replay terus ya lagu-lagunya? sebenernya cuman 2 lagu sih yg gue bilang enak hahaha lebay dikit boleh lah ya. apalagi yg judulnya di antara kalian. gue banget tuh lagu hehehe. terserah bilang aja gue norak. emg ngerasa norak kok hahaha. tapi emang beneran enak. gue sering banget dengerin ini lagu tapi ga pernah tau judulnya haha. sedih engga sih?

tapi emang bener sih, the song's lyrics sort of suits my current affair. liriknya cuuy gahul haha. liriknya dalem gitu deh pas banget. gila udah jam setengah 1 pagi tapi kok gue belom ngantuk ya? padahal gue tadi sore cuman tidur 2 jam gitu. gpp deh, itung-itung biasanya kalo begadang bikin kurus ya ngga? denger-denger sih hahaha. desperate banget nih gue sumpah pengen kurus lagi. dulu udah kaya babi skrg tambah kaya babi lagi. aaaaaaa sumpah some of my outfits don't fit me anymore. sedih banget gue... pokoknya size celana gue has to go back to size 6/34/27 lagi deh. huuh :(

tidur ga ya tidur ga ya tidur ga ya?

xoxo

Damn Fat

2008-09-02T22:27:00.005+07:00

Soo the second day of fasting. It feels good you know, to fast. It's the right month to lose weight again! I gain 3 kilograms already. The last time I looked at the scale, I weight 46 kilograms! Friggin' 46 kilograms! MAAANN I AM SOOOO FAT! I used to be 43 kilograms everytime I weigh myself at night. And my morning weight used to be 41 or 42 kilograms. It was 3 months ago! Can you imagine that? With only 5 feet of height, I weight 46 kilograms? How fat could that be? I should've weight 40 kilograms.

Sooooo during this fasting month my targets are ...

LOSING WEIGHT!

LOSING FATS!

WEIGHTING BACK TO 43 KILOGRAMS!

I know you can, Nai. You did it once. You can do it for the second time! Huahuahua!

I'm soo desperate ;p

xoxo

How Complex

2008-08-30T22:24:00.003+07:00

Do you know how it feels like to be cheated on? It hurts. A lot. Especially when you trust that person so much you think that person is the one. The words that come out from his/her mouth are sweet. Too sweet that it'll hurt you when you finally find out that he or she is actually faithless.

I've been there. I felt it once. It felt like my heart is crushed, crushed, and crushed. I wasted a lot of tears. I was filled with remorse. But I'm keeping it away. I don't care about it anymore. It's just a past. That was then. And now? Someone else has become the-me-then. She may not know it but God knows I'm doing it. I tried stopping. I tried quitting. It's too late. We go too far.

We aren't dating. But we are, emotionally. And as a matter of fact, I am filled with jealousy. Knowing that he still loves his girlfriend, too. I mean if he doesn't love her anymore, why continuing the relationship? I'm not going to persuade him to break up. I don't want him to do it either. Haaahh, the same old me. Same old patient me.

I just want to stop. I feel evil. I'm hurting her. I'm the third-person.

xoxo