Already 17 now ya'll! But still am small and petite. Despite that I've got a big heart and a huge ego. You'll love me as I spill my greatest ups and downs moments here. Have fun reading, potatoes :-)
Naida xoxo

Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Omige Desperado Abis -___-

Math test today at 10. Can't sleep, could this be insomnia?

Lately, something has made me realize how much of a jealous person I am. And this trait needs to be gone cause it certainly does not feel good, at all. Jealousy sucks, you know. It makes you feel so insecure like all the time, when you shouldn't be. It makes you think of foolish stuffs, you don't even know whether they're the truth or not, when you shouldn't be thinking of it. Jealousy is all about insecurity. And... I loathe myself every time I feel insecure about something. It makes me fidget all the time. Painless, but nerve-wracking.

But after I gave it a re-thought, this is not jealousy. This is about me feeling a little less special...

Maybe that's the reason why my thoughts were wandering around though my eyes were closed. Got too much to think of, and none of them are close to important. At this very moment, I totally need my booty call pals...

xoxo  

p.s: this is something I wrote early at midnight. I had trouble sleeping so there goes all those craps ;p

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Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Tanjung Lesung = na ah!

I feel like a total douchebag
I feel really bad
I feel really wrong
but in the other hand, 
I feel right
:S

Next week I'll be going to Tanjung Lesung with my school. Which I don't really know whether I should or shouldn't be excited. All I'm excited about is the beaaachh! Meaning I'll be dressed in my summer clothes and photo session! But......................... I haven't mentioned that it is a study tour held by my school. A PUBLIC school. Which means..... I have to dress properly. No shorts, no tanks, no babydolls. Which also equals to sucks and lack of fun! Not to mention, as I heard from some insiders, that 2 female teachers, whose presences are downright unwelcome, will be joining us! They'll be all noisy if we wear improper attire. 

Maaan it'll be a total pain in the ass!!! I'm not really sure if I still wanna join this study tour. It's also only 2 days 1 night, and the first day will be spent in Serpong for a small tour to a place where physics is written all over its place. I rather spend the whole day home watching dvd and eating corn flakes ;p 

So anyone wants to rescue me and bring me to some other places on the 8th and 9th? :)

xoxo

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Thursday, September 25, 2008
So Hard to Get You Outta My System

I've been thinking about taking back my words from my "Bye-bye" post. I just can't tell him and I think I am now stuck with him. So effin' hard. 

Damn, I mean, I just keep thinking about you
I mean, I wanna move on but I can't move on
It's like you have some kind of hold on me and I don't know
All the time we spent together
Makes it hard to get you outta my system

Outta My System by Bow Wow says it all ;p

It's just so hard to get you outta my system even if I wanted to. 

xoxo

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Wednesday, September 10, 2008
School-sick

It has been 2 months and 10 days already since I go to 68. Since I'm no longer stepping my foot on my previous high school, BiNus. Mann I school-sick again huu. Haha like the word even exists? Seriously I miss Binus so much. I totally miss the uniform. I used to whine about the uniform then, now I realize the whines are unnecessary. I miss the skirt. The short skirt, to be exact. I'll be honest, I think I look much better in Binus' uniform.

And I miss free dress day. I miss dressing up to school every Friday. I mean I had a lotta fun back then. Especially during my sophomore year. Man I miss 10 B so damn much. I miss when we moved to other classes together, the jayus jokes, we spent our recess and lunch together. Awww how I miss our togetherness. I'd trade anything to go back to grade 10 again. 

And second it has been hmm... 3 months and a day (wow) already since I'm crushing on him. Isn't it quite a long period? I've been waiting too long, it makes me keep on thinking whether I should just stop or keep continue waiting. I mean seriously I am single. And being single's supposed to be fun and unburdened. He's the burden and yet I couldn't drop the bomb. So yeah I've been thinking about giving up and just let him stay with his girlfriend. And then us, being friends again. But could I? Or could we?

To tell the truth, I like us better when we weren't as close as we are now. We used to have more fun than we are now. It seems like he's changing. No, our relationship kinda change. The closer we get, the more he'll change. If you can't choose, then just stick with your girlfriend. Don't worry about me. But one thing that I want from you, if you happen to read this post, can we still be friends? And keep sharing stories? Cause I had a lot of fun with you. Before.

xoxo

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