Already 17 now ya'll! But still am small and petite. Despite that I've got a big heart and a huge ego. You'll love me as I spill my greatest ups and downs moments here. Have fun reading, potatoes :-)
Naida xoxo

Sunday, May 10, 2009
It's Almost 3 In The Morning o.0

Lessons learned from today (well technically yesterday): 
1. You can't trust anyone. 
2. Lying will never keep your heart from not beating so fast (all the time).
3. You just gotta ignore the envious insignificant. 


Saturday was great. I went to a friend's house and since my curfew is rather tight I had to go home at 5 -___- but instead I stayed a little late so I arrived home at 6. Then I went out for a dinner with my bro, his girl, and my sis to Kemang. It's been a long time. My schedule is always filled most Saturdays so the chance of me spending time with them is very rare. So it's good you know, to finally attend a umm... siblings day out? Hahaha :p

I don't know whether that is supposed to be a coincidence or not. If it is, it's just too creepy. Cause girl, let me just put it this way... it's way too obvious ;p 

Sorry but I can't help it. I may be wrong, but people make assumptions and assume that their presumptions are right, no? Just can't leave this one unnoticed cause I feel rather disturbed.

And again, sorry for being so frank and sotoy-ly assured if you happen to realize :)

xoxo

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Wednesday, September 24, 2008
BBQ & Della's Turning 16!

Today was absolutely fun. Had a BBQ at Jon's (again) with cims plus Nabila and Ruben's Janice. It wasn't as fun as the previous BBQ since we weren't playing-with-water. It's just... it isn't complete without siram-siraman air. But nevertheless, it was a lotta fun too :) Just like old times. Too bad Andrew had to leave earlier for his grandma's birthday. He didn't get a chance to eat Rayner's spaghetti and Filza's chicken teriyaki. Thanks for cooking us dinner, guys! Hahaha sorry I wasn't too handy. But the foods you guys cook were tasty!

Actually Della celebrated her birthday tonight in Segarra but I couldn't come. The time collided with cims' BBQ. I wanted to come, really. But Cims had planned this BBQ since weeks ago when Della informed me about the treat last night. It was very last minute. Sorry Dell, pengen banget gue dateng. Coba lo bilang dari minggu minggu lalu. Gue kan bisa postpone BBQ nya kalo gitu huuuu. Nvm but happy birthday, Dell! I'll try finding something worthy for you!

We actually took great pictures from our small gathering at Jon's. However... I couldn't upload it to my computer SINCE I lost my goddamn memory card reader! Arghhh it's not in my sister's or my brother's room. It's not in my room either. Please God help me find the card reader. Aww man, too much whining won't help huuu :( 

So last but not least...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DELLA! Happy sweet 16! My cumi friend! =D

xoxo

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Monday, September 22, 2008
New Layout

So... I haven't been sleeping since I wrote the previous post. I said I was going back to bed but actually I couldn't. Which means I only had 4 hours of sleep last night. I'm not feeling too well for school today. Thank you God. I can still have a lot of time for a bedtime revenge. 

Second so... since I was all wide awake for around 2 and a half hours since 4 am, I decided to reconstruct my blog. It needs update and a fresh new layout. I thought it'd be a lot convenience to have everything stores in one page. I also love the white frame that comes with every pictures that I upload here. It just looks neat. Now my blog looks neat. Coolness.

Anyway, I'm in love with Ne-Yo. Not as in "love" love. I am referring to his songs. Well, not all of them. I bought his latest album and the first couples of track are good. The last 7 tracks are good and ear-friendly. But they're not so catchy. You guys should listen to Mad. I just looove the tune. I'm gonna upload it here as the background song later. I don't recommend you to buy the CD, just download it. Ne-Yo and Chris Brown are my R&B heroes. Can't wait for Chris Brown to launch his third album. Well, I hope he's in the process of making one.

Talking about R&B... nowadays I've been listening to some of Flo Rida's songs. Not that his music is R&B (his' hip-hop by the way), Ne-Yo just reminds me of Flo Rida :p I'm not a biggie fan of hip-hops but Flo Rida's songs are great. Well actually... I happen to have only 3 songs. Low (d'ohhh), Elevator, and In the Ayer. I don't know his other songs. I hope the others are as good as the 3 songs that catch my ear's attention. Go Flo Rida!

My writing mood was on. Now it's turned off. And I'm hungry. Gonna grab something to eat. Catcha' later!

xoxo

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Morning Pee Call

I'm not fasting today so I'm supposed to wake up like at something in the morning. But since I had to pee, I woke up at 4. Just in the right time for sahur. Hahahaha. So the point is... I'm bored :p

Soooo Saturday night was fun. After long overdue, I finally went out with Karen. And Michi. Too. Luckily I still had my period so I could eat lunch with them. We ate sushi tei. It was like "finally"! It's been a month since I last eat at sushi tei. After we had our lunch we watched Mamma Mia. At first I was like, "what the hell?" I wasn't expecting Mamma Mia. But since Karen and Michi wanted to watch Mamma Mia, so I just go with the flow. The movie turned out great. Some scenes were hilarious and not to mention the dances. So yeah, I don't regret watching the movie hehe.

After movie we met with Cims guys in Sency. It was a lotta fun. Just like the old days (as Andrew said it) only without Filza and Yella unfortunately. Ugh I love weekends and I love it more whenever I spend it with friends :)

Me, Michi, and Karen
Me, Jon, Andrew, Michi, Karen
Filicium no. 3

Gtg back to bed then. My eyes are heavy -.-

xoxo

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Wednesday, September 10, 2008
School-sick

It has been 2 months and 10 days already since I go to 68. Since I'm no longer stepping my foot on my previous high school, BiNus. Mann I school-sick again huu. Haha like the word even exists? Seriously I miss Binus so much. I totally miss the uniform. I used to whine about the uniform then, now I realize the whines are unnecessary. I miss the skirt. The short skirt, to be exact. I'll be honest, I think I look much better in Binus' uniform.

And I miss free dress day. I miss dressing up to school every Friday. I mean I had a lotta fun back then. Especially during my sophomore year. Man I miss 10 B so damn much. I miss when we moved to other classes together, the jayus jokes, we spent our recess and lunch together. Awww how I miss our togetherness. I'd trade anything to go back to grade 10 again. 

And second it has been hmm... 3 months and a day (wow) already since I'm crushing on him. Isn't it quite a long period? I've been waiting too long, it makes me keep on thinking whether I should just stop or keep continue waiting. I mean seriously I am single. And being single's supposed to be fun and unburdened. He's the burden and yet I couldn't drop the bomb. So yeah I've been thinking about giving up and just let him stay with his girlfriend. And then us, being friends again. But could I? Or could we?

To tell the truth, I like us better when we weren't as close as we are now. We used to have more fun than we are now. It seems like he's changing. No, our relationship kinda change. The closer we get, the more he'll change. If you can't choose, then just stick with your girlfriend. Don't worry about me. But one thing that I want from you, if you happen to read this post, can we still be friends? And keep sharing stories? Cause I had a lot of fun with you. Before.

xoxo

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Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Damn Fat

Soo the second day of fasting. It feels good you know, to fast. It's the right month to lose weight again! I gain 3 kilograms already. The last time I looked at the scale, I weight 46 kilograms! Friggin' 46 kilograms! MAAANN I AM SOOOO FAT! I used to be 43 kilograms everytime I weigh myself at night. And my morning weight used to be 41 or 42 kilograms. It was 3 months ago! Can you imagine that? With only 5 feet of height, I weight 46 kilograms? How fat could that be? I should've weight 40 kilograms. 

Sooooo during this fasting month my targets are ...

LOSING WEIGHT!
LOSING FATS!
WEIGHTING BACK TO 43 KILOGRAMS!

I know you can, Nai. You did it once. You can do it for the second time! Huahuahua!

I'm soo desperate ;p

xoxo

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Saturday, August 30, 2008
How Complex

Do you know how it feels like to be cheated on? It hurts. A lot. Especially when you trust that person so much you think that person is the one. The words that come out from his/her mouth are sweet. Too sweet that it'll hurt you when you finally find out that he or she is actually faithless. 

I've been there. I felt it once. It felt like my heart is crushed, crushed, and crushed. I wasted a lot of tears. I was filled with remorse. But I'm keeping it away. I don't care about it anymore. It's just a past. That was then. And now? Someone else has become the-me-then. She may not know it but God knows I'm doing it. I tried stopping. I tried quitting. It's too late. We go too far. 

We aren't dating. But we are, emotionally. And as a matter of fact, I am filled with jealousy. Knowing that he still loves his girlfriend, too. I mean if he doesn't love her anymore, why continuing the relationship? I'm not going to persuade him to break up. I don't want him to do it either. Haaahh, the same old me. Same old patient me. 

I just want to stop.  I feel evil. I'm hurting her. I'm the third-person.

xoxo

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Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Now and Then

I'm so tired right now. It feels like I could sleep for the whole day - but I know I can't. Since yesterday I started my very first day of private lesson at home. It was really tiring and I was really sleepy. But this is for my own good so ya I just gotta enjoy my 4 days in a row private lesson in a week. Lalalalalaaaaaaa. 

Life in 68 has been quite enjoyable. I finally have friends to spend my time with at school. But now and then is different. That is why I also miss my life back then when I was a Binusian. I miss CIMS and 10 B so mucho. Frankly writing, I don't have any intention of going back to Binus. I mean the school's getting suckier each single day. With all the rules that the fvckn principal created, I feel lucky moving to another school. But I miss my frieeeeendsssssssss. I know things won't be the same. Like I said ... Now and then ... ;(

p.s: can't wait for Saturday! :)

xoxo

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Sunday, July 27, 2008
Bored

I'm so happy. Happy hippy yippie :) He caught me off-guard and now I'm sooo over the moon. I'm sorry I made everything hard for you. I didn't mean too. But you made everything hard for me too now. Sooo yeah, we're even. 

Tomorrow's another day of school. It has been 3 weeks. 68 is great. I don't regret transferring to that public school. I just want a holidayyy. I've had enuf of school. Bikin pusing.

Jujur aja sih, kangen.

xoxo

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Cockroach

Oh, one important post before I go to sleep. The oh-my-god(!) sight that I saw as I got home after going out the whole day! After changing my outfit, I wanted to go to the bathroom... like urgently. I turned the light on, peeked inside my personal bathroom. I peeked to check whether any cockroaches are wandering around my bathroom. And jeng jeng jeng jeennnnnggg I saw one cockroach laying on its back. I wasn't quite sure whether it is dead or still alive. 

It was okay at first. It was dead. I thought it was the only one. But when I opened the bathroom door widely... ... .... ... ... there were SEVEN of them! ALL OF THEM LIED ON THEIR BACK. SEVEN SEVEN SEVEN. Yes, I counted their number. Six of them lied still, didn't move. But one of the friggin cockroaches was moving. Like it was still alive. Arghhh I had goose bumps for real. I immediately called my maid to clean all the dead cockroaches. I asked her whether she was the one who killed them cockroaches. But it turned out it wasn't her. 

Then who the hell kicked the cockroaches' butt until they lied on their back not even moving (despite the naughty one)? O my god my bathroom has its own mystery. My bathroom could've been a zoo decades ago. How petrifying -.-

xoxo

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Wounded? Na-ah.

I want to sleep. I'm so tired. Been out of the house for the whole day and I haven't had a little bit of a normal rest. I need to unwind a bit. But I can't sleep. I don't feel like sleeping. But I'll sleep after writing this scrap anyway.

Despite of me getting ready to faint, my day was the opposite. It was quite of an excitement. I went to Plaza Senayan with my Binus mates. Plaza Senayan Mall. Like for the zillion time. Me and my friends been hanging there for numerous time. I'm not fed up by going to that same mall for like... every week. With either friends or family. The mall's immensely cozy. Not to mention CIMS' filicium. It's like the best place ever :)

I watched batman today. AGAIN. For the second time. I admit the movie was okay... urr I guess. But it's just kinda boring. I fell asleep for some minutes. I almost had the time to finally relax until Michi woke me up!!! She nudged me and then ta-daaa I woke up when I still wanted to enjoy my cinema nap. Oh well.

Before I end today's lame post, how about another sneak peek of my sucky love life? Yeahh, still stuck with the same taken guy. Surprisingly, on weekdays I've had him out of my mind. Not totally out of my mind. I mean he kinds of like fading away from my thoughts, a little bit. When yet, I know I still like him. But suddenly he showed up again and filled my mind, the whole sector. Maan he ruins my cheery single life. How cool. I thought no one will ever disrupt my normal single life. And now I am back with the ups and downs of a bittersweet romance ;)

... and a bit of wound and pain.

xoxo

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