Already 17 now ya'll! But still am small and petite. Despite that I've got a big heart and a huge ego. You'll love me as I spill my greatest ups and downs moments here. Have fun reading, potatoes :-)
Naida xoxo

Saturday, July 25, 2009
I WANT OUT!!!

Once again I am missing out another great night. Oh well. I didn't even have the guts to ask permission to my Dad. He'd beat me up verbally and I'd be crying my ass off, so better keep my mouth shut. Still up, really bored. Well at least watching TV, bbm-ing, playing online pool with Andrew, and listening to good tunes had kept me companied.

"So girl, tell me is there something I can do to see you
Maybe you can make
a lil time i'll meet u
I just gotta tell u what I'm goin' through
Gotta let u know I still love you
there's so many things I wanna share with you
so much is there to make me miss you
for what its worth girl
I swear its true
gotta let u know
I STILL LOVE YOU!"
-Nelly

Aww the song's so sweet :)

xoxo

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Thursday, July 23, 2009
When You Thought You Were Always Right...

"Let's rewind, rewind, put all of this behind and just rewind..."


;' )

... you have always been wrong.

xoxo

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I'm Just Saying ; )

A part of my life has been pretty hectic lately. In a past few days, or weeks perhaps, I've been very miserable and it's pretty much annoying. I've tried hard to get it out of my head but once it disappears, it always comes back every once in awhile. Seriously, I just can't stand that fact. I mean, as Filza once told me, this is supposed to be my page now. I don't want any previous pages butting into it. Not that it's entirely wrong, it's just that I wanna be understood. My feelings want to be understood. I wanna be fully respected. You may think of this as nothing. But if indeed it was just nothing, why does it hurt?

I'm so lost here. I don't know what else to do. I don't know what to decide. Cause I'm not good in making decisions. I'm tryna be strong in facing all this. I'm tryna be chill.

xoxo


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Sunday, July 19, 2009
Pretty Much Bored

I changed my blog layout yesterday to something simple but Ichel said she likes the previous one better (the one used now). Because she adores my banner, the one with my pictures on :D haha joking. Katanya lebih rame and more lively. So yeah, I changed it back again hehe. The attempt failed. 

So, because of the bombing thing I spent my Saturday with Ichell helping her making *ehm* and went to PURI MALL. Gosh I haven't stepped my feet on that mall for years. Well I mean I exaggerated that one, but I don't even remember when was the last time I go there. But for me who lives in the east coast (yeaah) Mal Kelapa Gading is way cooler! Hahaha.

Anywaay, I haven't changed as grade 12 started. I am still a TOP CLASS procrastinator!!! I haven't started my biology project which supposed to be done earlier on Wednesday. The project takes 5 days and I am so going to hell. So reckon it's Sunday and I have nothing particular to do. Mom and Dad aren't home so no Malls (well even if they're home we wouldn't go there). I badly want pizza. One with melting cheesy topping and burning hot. I am drooling.

xoxo

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Saturday, July 18, 2009
May You All Rest in Peace

School has started, bummer. First day was alright, can't believe a year has already passed. I'm no longer a newcomer, I already feel like I'm a part of them. Though the thoughts of the good life I had in Binus still wanders around in my mind. I sometimes wish of staying in that school and spend my high school year til I graduate there. But yeah, no turning backs and I've met good people I'm pretty much happy being friends with. My future now relies with my progresses in 68, wish me a very good luck.

So it's weekend already. It's so quick, isn't it? I mean I just got myself dressed in those silly uniforms, waking up early in the morning, and now I'm freed already? But all the bombings that happened yesterday still terrifies me. Now most of my friends won't be allowed to go to the malls etc, etc. We had to cancel our ps time yesterday because most had to go home and we were all simply afraid. I don't think my parents there in Mekkah or somewhere know about this bombing thing. Cause if they knew, they would've texted me already telling me not to go anywhere until the situation's settled.

Why is some people are crazy enough to bomb places? What do they simply get? Satisfactions? Fuck those. They take life of the innocents, they put people in grief, destroying the surroundings, and things that are not even close with safety. You bombers just go to hell. You deserve it much much better.

xoxo

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Friday, July 10, 2009
What's A Life?

Kesel kesel kesel kesel kesel!!! :(

I'm supposed to be at sency or ps or somewhere and then go meet up with the others to go to Nabila's. But as always my dad's being an ass and he didn't let me stay over at Nabila's so yeah I have to stay home tonight. DOING BASICALLY NOTHING. Nothing more than playing the sims, maybe a dvd marathon, facebook (?), and other stupid stuffs you do when you simply have nothing to do at home. Usually I'll be on the phone with Ichell but since she's out tonight, goodbye phone calls. 

I mean seriously, my stupid school starts on Monday. Like next Monday, 13th of July! Duuude I only have 2 weeks of holiday. How more annoying could it be? And my parents are leaving for a week or something to do Umroh and HELLOOOOO?? I already have school? While my friends I always hang out with are still having their holiday? I've missed out a lot. I haven't even gotten the chance to catch up with an old friend who's about to leave Jakarta again. How great my life sounds. 

I want a cool Dad. One who doesn't set 6 pm for a curfew, one who supports everything I am doing, one who doesn't get mad that easily, one who's cool enough I'd love very much, and one who isn't too over protective. I mean I'm still living a life as a teenager. I have a lot of wants, I have friends I have fun being with, I wanna break free. I mean my Dad doesn't want me to go out till night, but what does he expect? Me studying? Or what? Dude, staying home for me is so remotely close to doing productive and fun things. Well at least I live in a modern era where I can still be able to communicate with others by internet. But stiiilll, during weekends I'm not gonna study okay. I'm not the type of person who studies 24/7 so it's useless to lock me home and sabotaging my weekend. 

Family day is on Sunday, so Saturday's supposed to be my day.

I want to go tonight. Badly :(

xoxo

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Monday, July 6, 2009
Morning

Got home from Bali last Wednesday. It was amazing, had a really really great time. Too bad we only stayed there for 4 days, I want a week! I went to Dufan a day after I got home from Bali. Man it was tiring, I slept rather early on the days I went home from Bali and Dufan. But the tiredness was nothing to the all the fun I had :)

But then weekend came and it was kinda rough. It was pretty much... rocky. Don't wanna discuss it here. I am myself again now. All cheered up and okay.

Now, helloooo Monday. Am staying home the whole day so that tomorrow I can go have dinner with Nabila and co. It's been awhile after my veeeeeeeeeery last dinner with CIMS. That's all I can remember, and that was on February. So sad ya? That's why I'm not gonna miss out tomorrow's! Too bad Reuben is in Singapore till Friday. At least his BBM works, we're not losing contact. I thought he'd be unreachable there for 5 days.

So yeah, please cross your fingers guys for me. So that my Dad will allow me out tomorrow! 

xoxo

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